give a little bit of that back to him. I’d wanted him to always know that even if he couldn’t see something, it didn't mean it was lost to him.
I'd enjoyed both playing the game with him and watching him as he'd played it, but now as his mouth moved beneath mine, I had no interest in what was happening on the television screen. All my senses were in tune with Lex.
As I kissed Lex hungrily, his fingers pressed into my thighs. His ass was notched up against my lap so there was no doubt that he had to be feeling the erection that was quickly becoming more and more prominent. Over the past few weeks, my grief had tempered my sex drive, but it was back with a vengeance and I had no interest in thinking about the consequences of what was about to happen between us. All I cared about was that I was finally going to make Lex mine. From the way he was returning my kisses, I knew in my gut that he was ready too.
But despite my body's obvious readiness, my mind still had some catching up to do. I pulled my mouth from Lex's and tried to catch my breath before whispering, "Tell me what to do, Lex."
He seemed to know what I was talking about because he brushed his mouth over mine and then responded with, "Just love me, Gideon."
My heart seized in my chest because I wasn't sure if he was talking about making love to him or actually loving him.
I did love him. I was scared to death of it, though. What I felt for Lex was a thousand times more powerful than what I’d felt for Serena, and while I knew he would never hurt me the way she had, if he didn't feel the same about me, I wasn't sure my heart would recover. So I chose to focus on the making love part because it was all my heart could really handle at the moment.
I kissed Lex again, then climbed to my feet. I reached down and wrapped my fingers around his hand to help him up. As soon as he was standing, I pulled him against me so our bodies were flush and then I was kissing him again. I forced myself to break the kiss before it got too intense and then I led him to my bedroom. He was back in my arms the moment we reached the bed. This time, it was Lex who controlled the kiss and I was just fine with that. His warm hands sought out my lower back.
"Off," he murmured as he gave my shirt a tug. I reached behind me to pull the shirt off. Before it even cleared my shoulders, Lex's mouth was on my chest, specifically my nipple.
The sensation of him running the flat of his tongue over the little bud nearly sent me to my knees.
"Fuck," I ground out as I covered the back of his head with my hand so I could hold him there. But Lex was on a mission of his own and he ignored the pressure I had on his scalp and moved his mouth to my other nipple. His hands were on the move too. I could do nothing but stand there helplessly as I became completely ensnared in his seduction. I'd never felt anything like it. Sex with Serena had been fine, but even the best orgasms I'd had with her couldn't touch what Lex's caresses were making me feel. Not only was I hard as a rock, but I felt like I was going to bust out of my skin.
"Lex," I whispered. His mouth searched out mine and he kissed me soundly. I ended up following him when he pulled his mouth away. He smiled against my lips.
"Gideon, if I do something you don't like—"
"You won't," I declared before I dragged him forward and kissed him hard. He returned my kisses, but then his fingers tightened in my hair so he could ease my head back enough to get my attention.
"Please, Gideon, I have to know that if I do something that you don't like, you’ll stop me."
There was so much worry in his voice that I knew it was really important to him, so I quickly nodded. "I'll tell you," I agreed.
Lex let out a little sigh of relief and then he kissed me again. But his mouth didn't stay on mine for long. It trailed down my