need you to.”
This was the moment I’d look back on and wish I would have listened to his father.
My brother.
This was the moment I could have changed everything that happened next.
The ride.
The euphoria.
The dream.
The high...
Before the low.
The fall.
The nightmare.
The high again.
This would have been the moment ...
I could have saved him.
Instead, I pulled away and peered deep into his eyes. “I’ll go anywhere with you.”
This would be the moment I became his enabler, and at the same time his new craving.
His new high.
This would forever be the moment, I didn’t know which one was worse.
Enabling him or addicting him to this thing called...
Love.
Chapter 13
“It may have been in pieces, but I gave you the best of me.”
-Jim Morrison
<>Journey<>
Welcoming us back with wide, open arms, Beck exclaimed, “And our family is back together,” as we stepped onto the tour bus.
He walked toward us with his arms still spread, sidestepping Cash to come right for me. Pulling me into the tightest hug, I could barely breathe.
“Our Junie is back. We missed our girl.”
Stixx and Jude got in on the hug, wrapping their arms around Beck and me.
“Family hug for Junie!” Jude celebrated.
“Everything is right again with our girl back on the bus,” Stixx added for good measure.
“You fuckin’ dicks! Stop callin’ her Junie. How many times do I have to remind you—she ain’t your girl. She’s mine.”
Beck replied, “No one is saying you can’t get in on this hug, you selfish prick.”
“Yeah, you possessive fuck,” Jude voiced.
Stixx sniffed me.
“Did you just sniff me?”
“Yep.” He glanced at Cash. “She smells way better than you. Is that sunflowers?”
Winking at me, Jude questioned, “Have you guys fucked yet?”
I swear I heard Cash release a growl from deep within his chest.
“Nope,” Beck chimed in. “They haven’t. Did you hear that? He sounds like a sexually frustrated son of a bitch.”
“Guys, can you stop hugging me now. I can’t breathe.”
“But we love you so much,” Jude stated, earning him another growl from Cash’s chest.
The second they let me go, Cash dragged me over to him and wrapped his arms around my stomach to embrace me from behind.
With his chin resting on my shoulder, he whispered in my ear, “If you let ’em touch you again, I’m gonna fuck you right in front of ’em, so they know whose cock you belong to. Wit’ your virgin blood still on my dick.”
“Whoa!” I hollered, not breathing for a whole different reason.
“Yeah, whoa is right,” Jude repeated. “You’re a virgin?”
“Oh, you lucky fuckin’ wanker!” Beck shouted, clapping his hands together. “Now we understand his selfishness. By the way, I’d love to watch.” He looked at Jude. “Do we have any popcorn?”
“No, you ate it all.”
He clapped again. “Suzie!”
“Who’s Suzie?” I asked.
“His PA,” Cash answered. “Beck has women at his house who sit around in bikinis just waitin’ to suck his dick.”
Offended, Beck roared, “It’s in their job titles, you fuckin’ prick! They’re my dick suckers.”
I giggled. I couldn’t help it. I loved how they all messed with one another, busting each other’s balls at any given moment.
“Are you fuckin’ your PA?”
“Cash!” Beck yelled. “Are you not fuckin’ yours?” We locked eyes. “I mean, you know ... before you came along, pet.”
“Alrighty, I’m going to go take a shower. You guys can catch up.”
I went to move, but Cash held me firmer. “Want some company?”
“Sure.” I gestured to the boys, sassing, “You guys want to join in?”
They all took a step in our direction, and Cash put his arms up in the air, halting their descent. “You stay right fuckin’ there.”
He let me go long enough to break free, and as soon as I took a step, he smacked my ass really hard.
“Ouch! What was that for?”
“Don’t fuck wit’ me, Little Miss Thang. You know exactly what it’s for.”
I smirked, eyeing the guys again and teasing, “First one to Cash’s shower gets to see my boobs!” I took off running with Cash hot on my tail. Hearing him chuckle through the hallway when I picked up speed.
“Why you runnin’, Junie?”
“Because I’m not stupid!”
Once I made it into his room, I rapidly turned a little too quick and lost my footing. Cash grabbed ahold of my arms and yanked me against his torso, the momentum throwing our bodies onto his bed. My body impelled backward, and I slightly gasped, expecting him to fall hard right on top of me.
He didn’t.
Breaking our fall with his sturdy arm wrapped around my waist, he eased his muscular frame on mine. Instantly caging me in with