Roland laughs and Viking leans back in his chair with a pissed off look on his eyes.
“Nothin’ you need to worry about darlin’. How are you holdin’ up?” Roland asks me. His eyes are on fire. God I’ve missed him.
“I don’t know. Drake keeps asking for you. He wants to know when he can see you again. I don’t know what to tell him. I don’t belong at your club Roland,” I admit. That’s the first time I’ve admitted it out loud. Roland’s eyes shift to Viking’s before they come back to meet mine.
“I’m gonna let you two talk. I’ll wait out front for you Molly. Keep your head down as much as you can brother,” Viking stands and walks out of the room leaving Roland and I alone.
“What’s happenin’ at the club?” His eyes hold so much concern in them. It’s almost amusing considering where he’s at.
“I just don’t like being there. I don’t fit in.”
“Babe if someone is messin’ with you go to Mason or Viking.”
“They aren’t. I just feel like a burden there. I feel like they all look at me like this is all my fault, and they are right, it is,” I tell him. Roland’s face hardens.
“None of this is your fault. Do you hear me? Look at me Mols.” I tip my head up to look at him as tears fill my eyes. “This isn’t on you. Tom fucked all of us, but I promise you I’m gonna make it right. Okay? How’s my boy? He in school yet?”
I reach up and wipe my tears. “No. Taz is homeschooling him for now. I was going to, but he seems to really like her. Mason said he thought it was the best idea until everything is all worked out. He misses you. We talked about you, and he knows what happened wasn’t your fault, that I lied to him, telling him what I thought he needed to hear. Letting him believe you didn’t want him back then was just easier,” I admit.
“Fuck I want to hold you so bad right now. It’s okay Mols. Just hold on for me. Yeah? Don’t run this time. I need you now more than ever.”
Looking into his eyes I can see how much he means it. I know he needs me the same way I need him.
“I need you too,” I whisper.
“Time’s up!” the guard yells from over Roland’s shoulder. Roland gives me a sad smile before he stands up.
“Stay strong for me baby. I mean it. When this is over I don’t want to have to chase you down. I want you waitin’ on me. Got it?”
Shoving out of my seat I stand up as well. Roland peeks over his shoulder before reaching for me. He pulls me into another quick hug, kisses my neck, and whispers, “I love you more than my own life.”
When he pulls away my heart falls in my chest. His eyes are bright as he walks backwards away from me still watching me. As he reaches the door he gives me a wink and a smile. I raise my hand and give him a small wave as I watch him go back into the darkness that he now has to live in. All because of me.
Chapter 13
Molly
“Everything is all fucked up Fin,” I tell him yet again.
Fin chuckles but doesn’t say anything in return. He waves the waitress over and orders more drinks.
“That it is but have a little faith darlin’. He’s doin’ what he thinks is right. When you’re locked up in hell, you have no choice but to make some deals with the devil. That’s all he’s doin’. He’s protectin’ his ass at any cost.”
His words do very little to soothe me, but I can see his point. Fin has been a lifesaver the last few months. He’s always there when either Drake or I need him. He’s always at making sure we’re comfortable.
The waitress comes back and sets our drinks on the table. “Anything else?” she asks while eyeing Fin like he’s a piece of meat. I find myself giggling as she eyes him like that.
“Nope, I’ve got everything I need. Thanks,” he dismisses her quickly. She huffs, turns on her heel, and stomps back toward the register. I can’t stop the laughter that erupts out of me.
“What?”
“You don’t see it do you? That girl was totally flirting with you.”
“She wasn’t flirtin’.”
“Uh yeah, she was. Oh my gosh. How can you not see it?” I laugh even harder. Fin looks