never said things like that to me.
“Me either,” I say softly.
The music is still pounding through the speakers when he pulls out of me. I nearly cry out at the loss of the connection we just shared. The bed dips as his body falls next to mine. He reaches for his shirt, which is lying close by, wiping his face and chest with it before he drops it back to the floor. He reaches over, grabs me by the back of the neck, and jerks me closer to him. I settle into the crook of his arm. We’re both still catching our breath.
“We need to shower, but I like you smellin’ like me,” he says pressing his lips to the side of my head.
I don’t reply. My mind is playing tricks on me. I’m overthinking. Should I have done this? I’m lying to Fin and that’s not something I like to do. We’ve never kept secrets and it’s going to be hard not to tell him about this.
“Talk to me,” Viking interrupts my thoughts.
“I don’t lie to Fin. I never have. He’s my family.”
Guilt and anxiety are twisting inside my stomach. The more I think about him the more I don’t think I did the right thing here. I should stay away from Viking. That’s what he wanted to begin with. I shouldn’t have come out here this week.
“So don’t. To hell with it Carnie. If we’re gonna do this then we might as well do it out in the open. I’m not gonna keep my ragin’ dick in check just because your brother is standin’ in the same room. Fuck we’ve got a whole week out here. Don’t think this was the only time I’m gonna fuck you.”
I shove myself up the bed and feel his seed leaking out of me. Something about that feeling makes my pussy clench all over again. My insides are on fire. I wonder how many times this man could make me come in one night? The real problem here still lingers though.
“No. We can’t. I can’t lie to him. Do you know how many times he’s told me that he better not catch me with one of the guys from the club?”
Viking chuckles, but I don’t think this is funny. This is serious to me.
“Stop it. I mean it. Fin tries to protect me Viking and I fucked that up.”
The words leave my mouth before I can stop them. The anger that washes over his face guts me.
“It was a fuck up? A mistake? That what you’re sayin’ here?”
He shifts so that he’s sitting up on the bed looking over at me.
“Yes. No. No. I just don’t want to hurt Fin.”
“Yes? No? Which is it Carnie? Fuckin’ tell me.”
“I can’t hurt him. He’s my family. You don’t understand Viking,” I scream a little louder.
“But you can hurt me? That it?”
Oh god. He didn’t just say that to me. He can’t possibly mean that. The music shifts and a slower song is playing over the speakers. Snuff by Slipknot taunts all of my sanity as we sit and look into each other’s eyes. Viking slowly nods his head and pulls back his emotions. He stands from the bed and grabs my clothes as he goes. When he turns around he throws them all at me.
“This was a mistake to you? Get the fuck out of here. I respect Fin and you have every right to come into the clubhouse, but if you ever come near me…”
He lets his sentence linger. Viking storms toward the bathroom and slams the door closed behind him. Sobs rips through my chest. What am I doing? What the hell did I get myself into? I look at the clothes in my hands and think about it all. Should I go? Should I stay?
Part of me says to run and the other part says I should run to him. I’m safe with him. I’m calmer with him. My head is right when I’m with him. I toss the covers onto the floor and shove out of the bed. His come is still leaking down my thighs. I trudge to the bathroom, open the door, and I’m assaulted by the steam from the shower. I almost smile when I realize he likes his water almost as hot as I do.
When I pull the shower curtain back I see that Viking is standing there with his head down as the water caresses his body perfectly. His long blonde hair hangs in wet