brain won out and forced me into a cold shower, where I might or might not have palmed my cock. Twice.
It was Lex.
It was Lex.
It was Lex.
But it sure as fuck hadn’t felt like I’d been kissing my best friend with her tight little body pressed to mine and her breasts pillowed against my chest.
No, that hadn’t felt like anything even resembling friendship.
I’d texted her twice that morning, but in true Lex fashion, she’d ignored me. I swear, that woman was a professional when it came to running from her problems. It had never bothered me before. Though I’d never been one of those problems before. Now, it just pissed me off.
“How do you know I was hiding?” she snapped, a few broken twigs with leaves still stuck in her hair.
I tipped my head to the side and planted my hands on my hips. “You do realize we’ve met, right?”
Her lips thinned. “Unfortunately, I’m aware.” Finally lowering her weapon, she used a hand to shield the sun from her eyes. “What brings you here on this fine Saturday, Hudson?”
I took a step toward her, fully expecting her to retreat, but when she didn’t, I plucked the leaves from her hair. “A couple of things, actually.”
She peered up at me, her bright-green eyes sparkling in the midday sun. “If any of them begin or end with what the hell happened last night, I’m out.”
I sighed. “Come on, Kid. We have to talk about it.”
She shook her head and turned on a toe, making herself busy by gathering the hose on the pressure washer. “No, we really don’t. And I thought I told you to stop calling me Kid. Seems a little creepy after you shoved your tongue in my mouth last night.” She marched to her open garage door, calling over her shoulder, “Which we still aren’t talking about, by the way.”
I rolled my eyes and followed after her. “If I recall correctly, you did a little shoving your tongue in my mouth too.”
After grabbing her broom from a hook on the wall, she hurried back out without so much as making eye contact again. “It was a self-defense move.”
I once again fell into step behind her. “See, I considered that—until I remembered you looping your legs around my hips.”
She started sweeping the already spotless sidewalk in front of her door. “It’s how octopuses in the wild subdue their attackers.”
“Right,” I whispered, quickly losing my patience with this discussion and my roaring desire to seal my mouth over hers and see what else she’d learned from animals in the wild. I caught the broom midswing and tugged it from her hands.
“Hey!” she objected.
Dropping it at our feet, I pleaded, “Can you just give me something here? I couldn’t sleep last night.”
She crossed her arms over her damp T-shirt. “Have you tried melatonin? I hear it works wonders.”
“Damn it, Lex,” I snapped, raking a hand through the top of my hair. “I’m serious. I feel like I’m losing it right now. I don’t know who to talk to. No, strike that. I can’t talk to anyone even if I had someone because I don’t know what the hell is going on between us.”
“I don’t know, either!” she exploded, and pissed off as she was, I breathed a huge sigh of relief.
Angry and ranty Lex, I could handle.
“This is new to me too, okay? You’re Hudson. The idea of kissing you should be only slightly less stomach-churning than kissing Cal. But it wasn’t. And I really fucking enjoyed it and that just confuses me more. Because I can’t stop thinking about it. And part of me really wants to so we can just go back to normal.” She sucked in a shaky breath that might as well have destroyed me. “The other part of me is terrified that nothing is ever going to be normal between us again. I’m a tad overwhelmed here, okay?”
“Hey,” I breathed, closing the distance between us. I rested a hand on her hip and gave her a squeeze. “Easy. It’s okay. Don’t get upset. We’re fine. If you want normal, I can do that. Just relax. We’re good.”
Looking off to the side, she whispered, “This doesn’t feel good.”
Damn if she wasn’t right. The kiss had felt good. Actually having her in my arms had felt incredible. But the unknown and uncertainty that followed was awful.
You meet a woman, kiss a woman, date a woman, and then shit falls apart. No big deal. You go your separate ways. But