place the containers in the refrigerator for when she gets hungry. Mum has so much pride, it’s insane.
Papa, too, I guess. That’s why they’re always at each other’s throats.
I pour us each a cup of tea and join her on the sofa. She’s watching The Notebook. Again.
“Mum, seriously?”
“What?” She takes the mug from me. “Romance in films and fiction is much better than real life.”
“You’re the one who told me it’s all lies.” I settle beside her.
“That’s why it’s better than real life.”
I run my finger over the hem of the cup. “How’s it going with Lucien?”
“Fine,” she says in a dispassionate tone.
“Mum, are you even trying?”
“Of course I am. Lucien isn’t a loser like the others. We talk a lot and he’s not intimidated by my brain.”
“That’s great, right?”
“Uh-huh. He wants to take me to France.”
“Why don’t you go? It’ll be so romantic.”
“What was I just saying? Romance doesn’t exist in real life, Babydoll. Anyway, I’ll think about it.” She faces me. “Now, tell me about you.”
“M-me?”
She smiles in a sly way. “Don’t think I haven’t noticed the way your features have brightened up lately.”
“T-they haven’t!” My cheeks are so heated, they’re about to explode.
“Oh yes, they have.” She narrows her eyes. “It’s not even Jonathan’s son, is it? My daughter is a man slayer.”
“Mum!”
“What? You’re with two men at the same time and you get to choose which one is best. As long as you end up marrying Aiden, all is good.”
I swallow at that. Not only is Aiden so caught up in Elsa that he’s physically unable to see anyone but her, but there’s also no way I’d marry him.
The sole reason I’m still keeping up with the engagement is because of the camouflage and Papa’s campaign.
“Don’t let it consume you.” Mum strokes my hair off my forehead. “You’re the only one who’ll suffer.”
I abandon the cup on the table, wrap my arms around her waist, and hide my face against her chest. “What if it’s too late, Mum?”
“Oh, Babydoll.” She places the mug on the table and hugs me. “Why did you have to repeat my mistakes?”
I’m not repeating her mistakes.
I’m going one step further.
I’m making it so much worse.
Mum falls asleep on the sofa after drinking two glasses of wine. I cover her with a blanket and take away Papa’s campaign plan from between her fingers.
It’s the same one he presented to the party today — the one she criticised harshly. She said it can be better.
I kiss her on the temple and then clean the dishes before retreating to my room in Mum’s flat.
She decorated everything to make it like the one I have back home. Only, this one doesn’t have a balcony from which ‘someone’ can sneak in.
Pulling out one of my oversized T-shirts, I put it on and go commando. In the past, I used to wear knickers, but since Cole has become a constant part of my nights, I’ve developed the habit of wearing nothing underneath.
It’s…liberating.
I retrieve my phone and scroll through Instagram. Elites lost today because Xander and Aiden were too distracted.
Ronan posted a selfie with the other three horsemen a few hours ago — right before the game started. Cole stands in the back as Xander clutches him and Aiden by the shoulders.
He’s not smiling or scowling. It’s his default face. I zoom in on him and my heart does that same little flutter that happens whenever I look at him.
My fingers trail to my necklace and I close my eyes for a brief second, imagining him coming through the non-existent balcony and jumping me on the bed.
Is it healthy that I miss him when I just saw him this morning?
My phone pings and I startle, my eyes flying open.
If my heart could spill to the ground, it would right about now.
A text from Cole. It’s almost as if he’s telepathic and knows exactly when I’m thinking about him.
Cole: I’m in your room. You aren’t.
My breathing hitches as I type.
Silver: What are you doing in my room?
Cole: What I do every night, Butterfly. Getting my dose of you.
An involuntary smile grazes my lips.
Silver: But I’m not there.
Cole: Your sheets are. Your smell is. Even your underwear drawer.
Silver: Don’t you dare look in there!
Cole: Already did. Do you honestly think there’s something of yours that I haven’t already looked through?
Silver: You’re such a pervert.
Cole: Admit it, you’re turned on thinking about me lying naked in your bed as I jerk one off to you.
I wasn’t, but now I am.
I can’t