to sneak up on AA guns. Since you know what they’re going to do, you can anticipate their moves.”
That same old adage. If you knew what the enemy would do, you had an advantage. I’d tried that, in the battle where Hurl had died. I’d saved Kimmalyn, but I’d left my wingmate alone.
Nobody blamed me; it had been the right move to break off and protect Kimmalyn. It still gnawed at me though.
And . . . I was already not paying attention. I tried to snap my focus back to the search for Krell, but I knew I wasn’t meant for this sort of duty. I needed something that engaged me, that consumed me, like a good firefight.
Blaze kept giving us tips. How to spot the wake of a low-flying ship from the patterns in the dust. How Krell move around hills when trying to hide from scanners. How to tell if something in the distance is a ship or an optical illusion. It was good stuff, and important. Even if it wasn’t for me, I was glad Cobb had us trying out different combat roles. It expanded my experience, made abstract tactics like “flanking flights,” “reserve ships,” and “scouting parties” into real things.
I heard a pop in the sky. Our training with the scouts was happening during an actual battle.
“How do you deal with . . . the emotions of it?” Arturo asked over the line. “Of scouting, when . . . you know . . .”
“When everyone else is fighting, maybe dying?” Blaze asked.
“Yeah,” Arturo said. “Every instinct I have says I should be flying toward that battle. This feels . . . cowardly.”
“We’re not cowards!” Blaze said, her voice rising. “We fly ships with a fraction of the armament of even a Poco. And if we intercept Krell, we might have to fight and slow them on our own to buy time for—”
“Sorry!” Arturo stopped her. “I didn’t mean it like that!”
Blaze breathed out. “We’re not cowards. The DDF makes it very clear that we’re not. But you might have to deal with a . . . a look now and then. It’s part of the sacrifice we all make to see that the Defiant Caverns are kept safe.”
I banked through a careful sequence of swerves, trying to use the time to practice my low-elevation maneuvers. Eventually, the debris fall behind us stopped, and Cobb called us in.
We fell into formation, did verbals, and flew back to base and landed. While waiting for the ground crew, I happened to glance at the mess hall, and a hint of a smile crept to my lips. I remembered crashing through its hologram on my first day.
A wave of guilt erased my smile. It had only been three weeks since Hurl’s death. I shouldn’t feel happy.
Siv climbed up the ladder, so I hit the cockpit release and pulled off my helmet, which I handed to her.
“Nice landing,” she said to me. “Anything we should look at on the ship today?”
“Control sphere feels like it’s grinding somewhere,” I said. “It seems to tug back at me when I move it.”
“We’ll give the mechanism a good greasing tonight,” she said. “How’s that receiving button working? Still sticking? We . . .” She trailed off as, on a nearby platform, a Camdon-class fighter landed with smoke pouring from the left side of its fuselage. Siv cursed and slid down the sides of the ladder, then went running with several other ground crew members.
Feeling sick at the sight of that poor ship, I climbed down, joining Jorgen, who was standing at the edge of our launchpad. We stared across at the fire. Several other fighters landed nearby, and one seemed—remarkably—in even worse shape. Scud. If these were the survivors, how many pilots had we lost?
“Were you listening to the flightleader radio channel?” I asked.
“Yeah,” Jorgen said. “They got flanked, then targeted with a double flight of enemy ships. Like the Krell were specifically trying to bring down these fighters, ignoring everyone else.”
I breathed out as Arturo and FM joined us, all watching silently as ground crew pulled the barely conscious pilot from the burning ship, saving her life. Others hosed the ship down with foam.
“Spin, you were right the other day,” Arturo said. “When you said the DDF was losing this war.”
“We’re not losing,” Jorgen said. “Don’t talk like that.”
“They vastly outnumber us,” Arturo said. “And it’s getting worse. I can show you the stats. The Krell keep replenishing, and we can’t keep up.”
“We’ve