don’t think you know what you want, Kitten. If you knew everything about me, about the things I’ve done, you wouldn’t be wanting me to touch you, let alone take a shower with you.”
His response hurts and feels a lot like rejection, but I’ve been hurt worse in my time here, and though I might be inexperienced and a bit naive, after the way he kissed me, I know he wants me. He can deny it all he wants, but his body proves otherwise.
“You’re part of the reason I’m here, Ivan, and I still want you, so I think I know what I am asking for.”
Nervous laughter spills from his throat. “No, you haven’t the first clue what you’re asking for, and I might be a bastard, but I’m not taking that from you, especially before the checking.”
My brow furrows. “The checking?”
“Come take a shower, and I’ll take one with you.”
I oblige, springing from the bed. I walk into the bathroom and pull off all of my clothes, tossing them to the floor. I am not as timid as I was last time when I got naked in front of him. Ivan does the same, though his movements are slower and just like last time, I enjoy watching him strip. My eyes rake over the dark ink painted on his skin. He’s toned and tan, and my mouth waters with every new inch of flesh I see.
“Are you still bleeding?” He turns the water on and steps into the shower, extending a hand outward to me.
“No.” I take his hand and groan when the heated water lands against my back. When I look up at Ivan, there’s a hunger reflecting in his gray eyes.
“I think you knew what you were doing when you asked me to take a shower with you, Kitten.” His tone is playful and makes me smile.
I step closer and reach for his erection, but he snatches my wrist in an unbreakable hold.
“Not today, Kitten. I can’t have sex with you, but I can give you pleasure.” He grins before spinning me around and pulling me flush to his chest, so my back is pushed against his front. I feel his penis press into my lower back, right above my ass cheeks, and I wonder for a moment what he is doing. He said he can’t have sex with me, because of the checking, whatever that is, but knowing what the future holds, that some rich man is going to take it, makes me want to give it to Ivan even more.
With that thought, I lean forward and push my ass back against his raging erection.
“Violet,” he grits out, each finger on his hand wrapping around my hip, holding me in place. My name on his lips sounds strange, not to mention I didn’t even know he knew my name.
“I want you to be my first. If I’m going to be sold anyway, why does it matter? If this is the only thing I have that’s mine to give away then I want to give it to you.” I peer at him over my shoulder. I can see the conflict in his eyes.
“No. I want you, fucking believe me, I do, but I can’t. If they find out you aren’t a virgin when the doctor checks you then it’s procedure to give you to the men. The higher ups, then the lowers. Eventually, you’ll be sent to the whorehouse, that’s if you don’t die first. I’m not going to let that happen to you because I wanted to get my dick wet.”
I gulp at his confession. “Oh…” It’s the only thing I can say. I’m a whole lot of shocked. Shocked that he would tell me these things, shocked that they would do that to someone. Overall, I’m just so fucking surprised at how cruel of a bitch the world is.
“But I can do other things to you. I can finger you.” He releases my hip and trails his fingers down my lower back, over my ass, and between my legs. “I can eat you out. Feast on your pussy.”
I shiver at his brash words.
“I’ve never done either of those things.” My chest heaves at my admission.
“Don’t say shit like that, Kitten, not when I’m already barely hanging on by a shred.”
I shiver, feeling every word he said down to my core. He nudges my thighs apart with his hand and presses me against the tiled wall. I turn my head, placing my cheek against the cold