searched John’s face, then said softly, “I love you, John. Always have, always will.”
John took in a shuddering breath and engulfed Lukas in his arms, his face dipping down and pressing into his neck. Lukas held him tightly and peppered kisses over any exposed skin he could reach.
“I’m a terrible person,” Lukas said once John’s hold had loosened into a regular hug, one hand sliding down to cup Lukas’s ass.
“Why?”
“I kind of like that you felt a little vulnerable. Makes me feel like we’re on a more even playing field when you aren’t so perfect all the time.”
John laughed into Lukas’s neck. Hard. Like, Lukas’s body shook because of how much John’s body was shaking with his guffaws.
“Okay, seriously?” Lukas gently shoved John back to frown at him. “What the hell is so funny?”
It took a few moments for John to get himself under control. He had to wipe at the moisture in his eyes and take a few deep breaths. Finally, he leaned back against the counter and shoved his hands in his jeans’ pockets, eyes dancing with mirth.
“Sorry, that just caught me as really funny.”
Lukas crossed his arms over his chest. “Me admitting to being a terrible person is funny to you?”
“You aren’t a terrible person. The idea that I’m perfect or don’t ever feel insecure in this relationship was what was so funny. Baby, every other day I have to convince myself that you aren’t going to get tired of the old man sharing a bed with you. Especially since he’d never been with a man before you and is running on instincts and what he’s seen in porn half the time.” John rubbed at the back of his neck, his cheeks a little pink. “And I know it bothers you that we can’t go out like a regular couple.”
Lukas’s lips twisted to the side. “You aren’t old, and your lack of experience has never bothered me—in fact, I like it. I like that I get to be your first for certain things.”
John smiled, his eyes darkening with lust. “First for quite a few things.”
His cheeks heated even as he laughed. “Some of those things you could have done with women. Who knew straight people didn’t play with toys more?”
Pushing off the counter, John advanced on him and didn’t stop until they were pressed together. “Not straight,” he muttered before kissing Lukas softly. “Late-blooming bisexual.”
Lukas snorted out a laugh. “I like it. Very descriptive.”
Smiling, John cupped the back of Lukas’s head and held his gaze. “I noticed you didn’t say anything about the going out like a regular couple part…”
Breath catching in his throat, Lukas swallowed audibly. “I can wait,” he said quietly, making sure to maintain eye contact so John could read his honesty. “As long as I get you here, like this, I can wait for the rest. I’m not pressuring you.”
“I know. I just need to find the right time to tell Dave. Once he and your mom know, I won’t care who sees us together. Hell, I’ll enjoy taking you out and showing off my hot boyfriend.”
Lukas chuckled. “Boyfriend, huh?”
A predatory gleam lit John’s eyes, and he started backing Lukas up until his back hit the door with a slight rattle. “Definitely. Boyfriend means it’s just us, together, building something. That alright with you?”
Nodding furiously, Lukas threw his arms around John’s neck and pulled him down for a heated kiss. He moaned when John forced his tongue into his mouth, taking everything he wanted. And Lukas gladly gave it. His knees grew weak as John grew more aggressive, his mouth plundering Lukas’s as his hands slipped into the front of Lukas’s scrub pants.
“Fuck, I can never get enough of you,” John said, groaning when he wrapped his fist around Lukas’s hard and leaking cock. He gave him a rough couple of strokes, then was pushing at his pants and urging him to step out of them and his underwear. Once he was naked from the waist down, John quickly undid his own jeans and shoved them down, along with his briefs, just past his hips, then ripped off both of their shirts.
Lukas grunted when John’s strong hands suddenly grabbed him behind the thighs and lifted him. He wrapped his legs around John’s soft waist, his upper back supported by the door. “We could go upstairs, you know.”
Shaking his head, John lined up their dicks and leaned into Lukas, burying his face in his neck and shoving his hips forward in a rough thrust