him that way?
At the moment, it didn’t matter. The fact that feeling this way about another man was new for John didn’t diminish the intensity of his feelings. He felt pulled to Lukas in a way he never had before. After Dave nearly caught them a couple weeks ago, John had gone home and tried to forget, tried to stop seeing Lukas’s luminous eyes and hearing his husky voice breaking as he told John how much he hated seeing him with someone else.
Like John had noticed anyone that night except Lukas.
Lukas, who’d made his mom laugh repeatedly as they’d prepared dinner together, then stormed upstairs looking upset after disappearing into the pantry with her. John hadn’t been able to focus on a single thing Gina had been saying, laughing only when she did and then slipping away as soon as he could.
No one Lydia set him up with could make him feel the things her son did, and John would deal with that later. At the moment, he only cared about Lukas, about making him feel good and showing him that John wouldn’t run again. That he wasn’t scared of this thing between them.
“John,” Lukas whispered, his body leaning into John’s space just slightly, waiting for John to make the final move.
His heart was racing, but he wasn’t nervous, necessarily. He just wanted to make sure he didn’t let Lukas down again. Slowly, he slid his hand up to cup Lukas’s head and gave him a little tug so Lukas’s body closed that last little bit of distance between them.
Chests pressed together and the heat of Lukas’s hands burning into his waist, John leaned down and pressed the softest kiss to the corner of Lukas’s mouth. He grinned at the sharp inhalation Lukas took, then moved over and kissed the other side.
“Tease,” Lukas muttered as he turned his face toward John, trying to catch his lips.
Chuckling softly, he let their mouths slide together and groaned at the sweet taste of Lukas. He kept it slow, allowing them to gently explore and not get overwhelmed. When he nipped Lukas’s bottom lip though, Lukas’s body jolted, and he released a filthy moan that sent fire racing down John’s spine.
“So fucking hot,” he said against Lukas’s lips, then dove back in.
No longer satisfied with slow and sweet, he pressed his tongue at the entrance of Lukas’s mouth and groaned when he opened for him easily. He gently fisted Lukas’s hair and turned his head just a little so he had better access, his dick throbbing at the little whimper Lukas made in response.
He hadn’t let him himself think about kissing Lukas very much, but when he had, he’d assumed Lukas would be as feisty at this as everything else he did. But as Lukas’s lean body melted into John, and he moaned at John’s thrusting tongue, he realized this was much, much better. Lukas’s easy acceptance of John’s control triggered something inside him that he’d never let himself explore.
When he realized he was thinking about the easiest way to get Lukas naked and on the bed, he knew he needed to slow things down. There was no way he’d rush Lukas into giving more than he was ready to.
Chest heaving, he lifted his head and stared down at Lukas’s flushed cheeks and wet, plump lips. “Gorgeous.”
Lukas’s nose wrinkled as his eyes fluttered open. “What?”
“You’re gorgeous,” John said again, smiling when Lukas frowned a little at him.
“Stop being weird,” he muttered and tucked his face into John’s neck, his hands wrapping around John’s back as he sighed softly. “That was a really nice kiss.”
Running a hand up and down Lukas’s back, he nodded. “It really was. I can’t wait to do it again.”
Lukas squirmed and burrowed farther into John. “Yeah?”
“Definitely.”
They stood in comfortable silence for a little while, and then Lukas sighed again, but it didn’t sound as happy. Pulling back, he looked up at John with a soft smile. “I should head back to my cabin. Um, thanks for saving me dinner and… Well, it feels kind of weird to thank you for that kiss, but it was really good.”
Chuckling, John leaned down to press another quick kiss to Lukas’s tempting lips, but his back decided it was done behaving, and he grimaced at the spasm. He straightened back up and sucked in a breath. “Damn, way to ruin the moment with your old age, John.”
Instead of making him laugh, Lukas continued to look concerned as he stepped back a little. “Are you