he felt, and he thought he was pressuring John to love him back or something equally ridiculous.
The only way to convince him otherwise was for John to track him down and tell him how ludicrous he was being. And then demand an apology. He grinned and gripped the steering wheel tighter as fire raced through him and settled in his balls at the many ideas he had on how Lukas could say he was sorry for running out on John. They should have had a lazy morning together where John could love on Lukas a little, show him how much he’d enjoyed fucking Lukas and how grateful he was for Lukas letting John explore his kinkier side a little.
He’d never played much with toys before, but now he couldn’t wait to take Lukas to an adult store and go through the whole place, finding things that made Lukas turn that lovely shade of pink that meant he was turned on. He looked forward to finding many, many different ways to drive Lukas mad with lust.
As he pulled into town, he went to his own house first so he could drop his stuff off and grab a shower. Then he’d head over to Lukas’s place and find his wayward lover.
Turning into his driveway, his foot slipped off the accelerator, and he slowed, his eyes glued to the lone figure sitting on his porch steps. Furrowing his brow, he hurried to park outside his garage and grabbed his bags from the back seat.
He approached Lukas slowly, unsure if his appearance was a good sign or not.
“Hi, John,” Lukas said softly, looking up at him through his long lashes and smiling gently.
“Hey, baby. I didn’t expect to find you so easily…”
Lukas’s smile widened, and he raised his chin. “You were going to come find me?”
John frowned and walked up the stairs, trailing the tips of his fingers along Lukas’s jaw to the point of his chin, then continuing past him to the door. He dropped his bags and dug out his key, opening the door and stepping in to shut off the alarm. When he turned back around, Lukas was hefting up his bags and following.
“Give me those,” he said, his voice a little gruff. Lukas’s face fell, but he held out the straps of the bags and closed the door behind him, leaning back against it like he wasn’t sure if he were actually welcome. John rubbed at his face and tossed the bags aside. “This is dumb. Just… Why did you leave?”
Lukas’s brow wrinkled for a second. “Didn’t you find my note?”
“Yeah, I found it, but I don’t understand why you thought you had to sneak away while I was sleeping or why you’re here now.” John planted his hands on his hips and ignored how the sadness in Lukas’s eyes made him want to wrap him in his arms and never let him go.
Lukas took a deep breath and squared his shoulders, meeting John’s gaze head-on. “I realized I made a mistake leaving like I did. I’m sorry.”
Eyes narrowing, he crossed his arms over his chest. “That’s two apologies in one day, and I’m still not sure what happened.”
“Can I explain or… do you want me to leave?”
The pleading in Lukas’s eyes had John wanting to just say he forgave him and drag Lukas upstairs to shower with him, but he forced himself to step toward the kitchen instead. “Yeah, you can explain. Have you eaten? I haven’t and I’m starving.”
He heard Lukas following, but he didn’t speak until they reached the kitchen and John peered into his mostly empty fridge. He’d cleared out anything that wouldn’t last until he got back, and that didn’t leave a whole lot.
“I can make something real quick, if you’d like,” Lukas said from right behind John, his voice soft.
John nodded and stepped away, moving over to the island and plopping down on one of the stools. He watched Lukas pull out eggs and cheese and a few other things. Lukas worked quietly for a few minutes, and John let him, wondering what he was thinking and hoping he’d get to hear it. His plan of going after Lukas and demanding an explanation and apology were effectively ruined, so he decided just to go with the flow and see what happened. He wasn’t sure if Lukas even knew why he’d run that morning.
Several hours earlier
“Oh god, what did I do?” Lukas sat outside his house and stared at Kevin’s old car in the driveway.