experienced.
Josh seemed oblivious, rambling on about our limbs getting eaten and his balls shriveling up in the cold water.
I found my board shorts, and by the time I turned back around, he was dressed. “I gotta take a leak.” I pointed to the bathroom and went in there to change. My dick was half hard, which was exciting but also confusing and scary. Josh was not the right person for me to feel this way about. He fucked a different guy every week, and that was the complete opposite of who I was or what I wanted.
I tried to shove those thoughts away as I got dressed.
When I got back to the main room of the cabin, Josh was waiting for me by the door. “Get your ass out here, Grumpy G.”
He wrapped a hand around my wrist and tugged. Then, just like earlier, we were racing, only this time it was toward the dock. We ran down it, then jumped off the end, splashing into the cold water that felt like ice against my skin.
“Holy fuck, this is cold. Why did I listen to you? I’m never listening to you again. Motherfucker, I’m freezing.”
Josh’s hair was plastered against his head, his teeth chattering, but still he lunged for me. I dodged him, but just barely. “What? I’m trying to keep you warm. Come here,” he teased, swimming after me as I swam away.
I was laughing, and he was too. I turned around and splashed him, pure joy surging through my chest in a way I hadn’t felt in forever. I had no idea why playing in the lake with him was so damn fun, but it was, and I didn’t want it to stop.
I splashed Josh again, and he did the same. We chased each other back and forth, ducking underwater, then trying to splatter each other with it.
Next time he lunged for me, he caught me. His arms went around my neck, hanging off me. “I’m tired. Why’d you make me do this? Take me back to shore.”
“Me? I made you? How about the other way around?”
I turned a little, and he was still hanging on. Our faces were close, our mouths inches from each other. I didn’t know how this happened or why neither of us was pulling away. We were breathing heavily and shivering because of the cold. A drop of moisture trembled on the tip of one of Josh’s lashes before he blinked it away.
We were kicking, trying to keep ourselves above water, and then my hands were on his waist…and what the fuck was I doing?
Josh cocked his head slightly, as if he was as confused as me. “Griff?” His voice was soft, questioning.
When I didn’t move, didn’t reply, Josh began to lean in. Every warning bell inside me went off. I couldn’t do this, couldn’t want this. Not with Josh. We were too damn different, especially when it came to sex. Hell, he probably wouldn’t even be satisfied by someone like me. Or, what if this was a fluke and I didn’t get into it the way I should? I’d always been able to perform when I needed to, but it hadn’t felt like this, the deep-seated need spreading through me at a rapid rate. Just thinking about it scared the fuck out of me.
We jerked away from each other at the same time.
“Shit,” Josh said. “I’m sorry. Don’t know what came over me.”
“I…I gotta go.” I needed to think, needed to clear my head, needed to figure out if this was what I wanted, and what it meant, and how it could be with Josh when we were nothing alike.
“Wait. Go?” he asked as I began swimming back to shore.
“Yeah. I’m fine. Just gotta think. I’ll be back. Just gotta think,” I repeated. It was ridiculous, running from an almost kiss. I understood that, but I couldn’t stop myself.
We got out of the water, and Josh stayed outside as I went in and got dressed. With a scoop of my hand, I grabbed my keys, then went straight for my truck.
I didn’t see Josh at all as I drove away.
CHAPTER NINE
Josh
I stayed out by the dock until Griff’s truck pulled out of the drive, kicking up rocks as it went. “Motherfucker.” I ran a hand through my hair. That had been…really fucking stupid was what it had been. What in the world had come over me? Sure, I’d been feeling some kind of something when it came to Griffin for a while