This is not exactly what I feel like doing this morning with a hangover but whatever. I’ll just sweat the alcohol out of my system and be ready to do it all over again tonight. It’s what I do to get by these days.
Colton spots me on the bench, he’s rambling on about meeting up with some girl tonight, I’m not really paying attention to him though. I rarely do. My attention is on the burn in my arms, it’s keeping the voices in my head quiet, at least for now. I hate those damn voices that never shut up.
“Are you going out with that girl again from the other night? What the hell was her name again?” Declan Collins, another of our tackles, asks.
Colton looks around before answering him, “Madison.”
The mention of Madison’s name catches my interest. I don’t stop pumping the weights up and down but I do listen. What the hell is Madison doing with a guy like Colton?
Declan nods, “That’s right but wait…isn’t that Cash’s girl?”
Jet pipes up from the bench next to mine, “Who fucking cares, the girl fucks like an animal,” he throws his head back groaning, “and she sucks dick like you wouldn’t believe.”
I squeeze the bar a little tighter my knuckles turning white. Colton and Jet bump fists laughing. I want to say something, I should say something but I don’t. Cash isn’t my concern anymore and frankly neither is Madison even though she’s like a sister to me.
Everyone knows that Madison is screwing around behind Cash’s back but he either doesn’t seem to care or he hasn’t figured it out yet. Honestly, I think it’s that he’s avoiding reality. I know if I were in his shoes I’d be avoiding reality too. He was planning on proposing to her the night we won the state championship in high school. Until…
Saylor, who’s watching us in the mirror pipes up. “You guys need to be careful. Cash is right over there.”
Colton gives him a disgusted look. “Who the fuck cares, man? He’s a tool.”
Saylor laughs setting down the weights then turns to walk toward us. He’s a big guy, probably close to 250 and 6’4”. Removing his hat he runs his hands over his dark hair and then replaces it. “Yeah, Colton, he’s a tool that just so happened to save that game for us last week where you were tripping over your feet every other play and Jet here couldn’t make a catch to save his life.”
I want to laugh. I really do but I don’t. Instead I just keep lifting. The old me would have already started a fist fight for them talking shit on Cash.
“So set us straight then.” Jet pushes Saylor’s wide shoulder. “Is he just that dumb that his girl is fucking around and he doesn’t know?”
“I don’t know, man.” Saylor’s not giving up the details on his boy and I respect that about him. “That’s not my business.”
“Well, give us something here,” Colton says. They’re like a bunch of fucking girls. “Are they still fucking around with each other? I never see them together. I never see him with anyone. Dude’s probably gay.”
Saylor rolls his eyes and sits down at the bench beside me. “He’s not gay, assholes. He probably gets more pussy than the both of you combined. And he leaves at least once a week at 3 AM and I know for a fact he ain’t going to the gym. He’s with Madison.”
Jet and Colton don’t seem to give a shit and that doesn’t surprise me in the least. Madison is fucked up and this is what she is doing to cope.
I need to get the hell away from this conversation. I don’t need any more drama in my life. I create enough of it myself. With shaking arms I give one last push up and place the bar in the rack and lock it in place.
I reach for my water and towel, I shouldn’t say anything but I do, I just can’t hold back suddenly. They don’t seem to understand that Cash and Madison have a long history. I smile at Jet and Colton. “What’s entertaining is that you two act like she actually gives a shit about you, much less remembers your dicks the next day.” I shake my head.” She never will, trust me.” I walk away not even giving them a second glance or a chance to respond.
There is one treadmill open in the long row of them, it’s right next