just a minute.”
I roll my hips. He lets out a shaky breath.
“Please, Sam.”
And then he’s lost. His cock moves within me, his body rocking against me, his lips latching onto mine. It’s my own special moment. Every part of him is consumed with me, I get to have Sam completely. And it’s everything I ever hoped for.
His hips are picking up speed. He grabs for my cock as his thrusts get erratic and desperate. We’re at the top of a cliff, and when he touches me, we jump off together. My ass clamps down on him, and his cock gets bigger.
“I want to knot you,” he says.
“Yes. Oh, please, yes.”
But his knot is shocking. A polar bear shifter’s cock knots at the base. It’s a little uncomfortable, but it’s manageable. Sam’s cock seems to knot everywhere. Or maybe it’s just been too long. I don’t know if I can take it. I try not to panic. I want him inside of me. It’s just… oh my God. I grip his shoulders and try to relax.
“Lu, are you okay?”
I groan, as another orgasm overtakes me. I hear the sound of my slick gushing everywhere. Sam’s knot switches quickly from feeling like too much to feeling completely necessary. I bear down on it, squeezing him.
“Oh, Lu.” His voice is guttural. “There’s so much slick. Do you really like it that much? An omega like you with an alpha like me?”
There is a lot of slick. And a smell that I recognize. But I can’t tell Sam what’s happening. He’ll be angry.
This is our one chance, and I don’t regret it.
When my fingertips want to shift to claws, I hold them back. Sam doesn’t want my claws on his flesh—he doesn’t want my Blood Mark.
When my body wants to growl, I stay silent. If I have enough self control, Sam doesn’t ever have to know that I’m going into heat.
But staying in control is so hard. The animal within me longs to take over.
Sam starts making short thrusts with his knot, and I move with him, the desperation in my blood sweeping through me.
A low growl reverberates through my chest. Sam doesn’t seem repulsed. If anything, his thrusts are deeper. My last alpha never filled me this good. Sam gives me what I need, his breath coming in gasps. Our bodies are sweaty now, slipping and sliding against each other.
“You smell so good, Lu. You smell like heaven.”
At least he’s never been with an omega who had a heat before. He doesn’t know what that smell means. I try to keep my claws at bay, but I feel my fingertips sharpening. Sam’s knot is too satisfying. My bear wants to claim him.
“Please, Sam,” I beg, even though I don’t have the courage to ask for what I need. As my claws extend, I squeeze Sam’s knot hard, and he moans into the pillow. I sink my claws into his shoulders. I don’t mean to. I can’t hold back.
Instead of freaking out, he groans into the pillow again.
When my claws withdraw, I run my tongue along his broken flesh until it seals over. And then I cry. Big, huge sobs. Because I’ve done it again—I’ve marked a man who doesn’t want me. I might even be pregnant.
All a man has to do is buy my kid some clothes and show the slightest bit of interest in me, and I give it all away. Absolutely everything.
Even my heart.
6
Sam
Lu cries in my arms. Beautiful, kind Lu. He begged to make love to me. Begged. And now he’s clutching me so tightly, I can barely breathe.
We have to deal with this. I close my eyes and send a silent apology to Allen. I cheated on him, and I don’t even have the decency to walk away from Lu. But there’s no way I can leave him like this.
What am I going to do?
I run my hands through Lu’s lovely white hair. “Shhhhh, baby. It’s okay. Shhhhh.”
He burrows his head under my chin and keeps sobbing.
I’m still knotted deep inside him, and despite all the guilt coursing through me, the sweetness of being connected to Lu bleeds through the shame. I’ve been numb for so long, I forgot what it was like to feel.
“We’re going to figure this out,” I tell him.
Lu pulls back to look at me, his eyes puffy and red. “What about your mate?”
I swallow down the guilt. I’m nothing but a cheating bastard. I know that I don’t deserve Lu. He should be with