that?”
Savannah giggles. “Umm, you!”
Exactly. That’s my deal. I’m the one who runs out or finds someone to escort the stage-five clinger off the bus. I don’t go searching for the girl, and I definitely don’t go back for more when a girl brushes me off—twice.
“I never thought I’d see it happen.” Vannah leans back in her chair.
“See what happen?”
“A girl has you all twisted in knots. For once, you’re the one seeing what it feels like.”
I shake my head. She has no idea what she’s talking about. My sister-in-law is oblivious to the issue. It isn’t about her, it’s about how she seems not to care about me. I have feelings, too. I was in love before, but they forget that. “I’m not in knots. I’m goddamn confused. Why the hell would she push me away?”
“Oh, don’t even, Eli. You’re not some God. You’re a spoiled shit who has had everything handed to you on a silver platter.”
“The fuck I have.”
It’s her turn to give me a stare that would make any grown man cry. She looks around to make sure the kids aren’t near and then her face softens. “Watch your mouth. It’s bad enough Adriel told the teacher to kiss his ass the other day, we don’t need the F-word thrown around.”
Savannah is a great woman. She deals with a lot, but my seven-year-old nephew is a little shit. Adriel is the oldest, and he’s beyond overindulged. Randy was gone a lot when he was a baby and then overcompensated when he was home. I feel bad for her since she’s the one dealing with the fallout.
I put my hands up and flash her a smile. “Sorry. I’ll be more careful.”
“Good.”
“I’m just saying that we didn’t have it all that easy. There were no silver platters.”
Randy laughs. “You were eighteen when we were signed. Since then, have you had any issues?”
“Have you?” I gesture toward the walls around us. They act like they’re struggling. This nine million dollar mansion they’re living in doesn’t seem to be roughing it if you ask me.
“I remember Mom having to work an extra job for us to eat and take music lessons, do you?”
It always comes back to this. Of course, I remember. When our father passed away, everything changed. Yes, I was young, but that doesn’t mean I have no memory of it. My mother was great at hiding things, but no matter how hard you try, some things show through. When his child support stopped coming, we stopped doing a lot.
“Why do you think I took care of her when we got money?”
“Because you wanted to be her favorite,” he tosses back and chugs his beer.
“I already was, I didn’t need to buy her that house to solidify it.”
“Keep telling yourself that.” Randy laughs and shakes his head at me.
“Okay, boys. Back to my point. You’ve had a pretty easy adulthood, Eli. Girls flock to you, the band succeeded beyond anyone’s expectations, and then you landed the role on A Thin Blue Line without having any acting experience. Things fall in your lap, but this time . . . not so much.”
She has a point, but it doesn’t mean I don’t bust my ass. Sure, I was scouted and asked to join A Thin Blue Line, but I immediately started taking acting lessons. I hired the best coaches to make sure I earned my money. I can’t say anything about Four Blocks Down, that was a guy who promised us we’d be huge if we signed with him and a shit ton of luck.
Heather, though. She’s something completely different. For the first time, I don’t have someone chasing me because of who I am. Hell, she fucking ran.
I want to know why. I want to know what she’s hiding behind her tough-girl exterior. I’ve never spotted a girl in a concert like that. It took every ounce of self-control not to stare at her all night. There’s a pull between us, and I know she felt it.
I mentally scoff. It’s absolutely ridiculous that some girl is having this effect on me. But yet I keep wanting to go back which only proves that there’s something different. Why is this girl the only thing I can think about? The truth is, I wasn’t going to kick Heather out of my bed that night. I wanted to hold her in my arms, breathe her perfume through the night, and feel her skin against mine. Instead of getting any of that, she bolted.