I’ve ever been with,” Noah whispered.
Alex felt like the world stopped turning. “There’s been nobody else in all these years?” he asked in a choked voice.
Noah shook his head. “I want you. All I’ve ever wanted is you.”
Alex leaned forward and pressed their foreheads together, unable to say anything in the light of that confession. He had so many questions. He was so fucking confused.
“I want to have sex with you,” Noah said. “I want everything with you, but I might suck at it.”
Alex smiled. They would have time for talking later. Right now, he had to get rid of that pained expression on Noah’s face. “Sweetheart, believe me, just a few minutes ago, you did suck. And you were excellent.”
Noah snorted, the tension in his body lessening slightly, just as Alex had hoped.
“Say that again,” he whispered.
“The sucking part?” Alex teased.
“No. The sweetheart part.”
Alex closed his eyes. How could this man turn him inside out like that? How could he make Alex abandon all common sense so easily?
“Sweetheart,” he whispered over and over again as he kissed Noah’s forehead. Eyes. Cheeks. Lips.
Noah wrapped his arms around Alex and held him close.
“We don’t have to rush anything,” Alex said. “We can take it slow.”
Noah shook his head vehemently. “I’ve been taking it so slow for the last decade that I’ve practically been moving backwards. I don’t want to wait, but I don’t want you to be disappointed.”
“You could never disappoint me.”
“Famous last words.”
Alex laughed. “Come on. Don’t be a pessimist, and put your dick inside me.”
Noah started laughing, too, and neither of them seemed to be able to stop until they were both out of breath.
“Let’s try, then,” Alex said after they had calmed down. “Shit, who knows, it’s been awhile for me. I might be out of practice, so let’s just try and see what happens.”
Noah nodded. He watched with fascination as Alex smeared lube over his fingers again, Noah’s eyes flying to Alex’s when Alex reached his hand behind him and rose up to his knees to give himself better access to his hole. He pushed a finger inside and groaned.
Noah sucked in a sharp breath, eyes blazing, as he watched. Not that he could see anything other than Alex’s face as he worked himself open, but Alex was determined to turn it into a good show, so he didn’t hold back even the slightest hum of pleasure that needed to escape.
Alex hadn’t lied about it being a while since he’d last bottomed, so he went really slow, taking extra time prepping himself.
By the time Alex felt himself starting to relax, Noah was fisting the sheets, fingers clenching and unclenching, but otherwise he was completely focused on Alex. “That’s so fucking hot,” he said, eyes blazing.
Alex leaned forward and nipped at Noah’s lower lip. “Be a good boy and maybe next time I’ll let you see more,” he crooned. Noah’s whole body shuddered in anticipation.
Alex straightened himself and grabbed the condom. He tore it open and rolled it down Noah’s erection, which was starting to look painful by then. He made quick work of it, since judging by the way Noah clenched his teeth, he wasn’t far from shooting, and wouldn’t that be a shame? Alex grabbed the lube and dribbled a generous amount on Noah’s cock.
“You good?” Alex asked. Noah closed his eyes for a moment and nodded. “More than,” he said hoarsely.
Alex rose up on his knees and positioned himself. He took it slow, sinking down inch by torturous inch, stopping every once in a while to add more lube. Noah was long and hard and so hot inside of Alex.
It took Alex some time to work Noah fully inside of him, but when he was done, Noah’s balls resting against Alex’s ass, dick so deep inside Alex that he could’ve sworn he could feel it in his throat, it was all worth it. A bit uncomfortable still, but worth it. He knew from experience that if he gave it just a bit of time, the sting of pain would turn into unimaginable pleasure.
The moment was exquisite, the feeling too precious and fragile for words, so Alex refused to give a name to the tornado of emotions inside him.
Noah was panting like crazy, a pained expression on his face, not moving a muscle. “Okay?” Alex asked in a strained voice.
Noah opened his eyes, and Alex almost reared back at the sight of tears in them. Noah’s hand flew out, clutching Alex’s wrist. Not that Alex had