point?”
“I—”
But I don’t get a chance to stay anything because Kai speaks over me.
“Do you just enjoy messing me up?” he snaps and drags both his hands through his hair, clutching the strands between his fingers. “Do you think it’s easy for me?” He whirls toward me, and I try to follow what he’s saying, but it seems the two of us are completely out of sync because I have no idea what the hell he’s saying. It doesn’t stop Kai from ranting on, though.
“I’ve been trying so hard to be normal around you, but you just have to swoop in and throw me off course every damn time. What’s wrong with you? Is it so damn hard to just read the room and stop? I mean, my God! And you’re always here. Wherever I look. It’s like you’re around every corner. And you don’t even realize it, and it’s just torture because you’re so fucking clueless! And the most frustrating part is it’s not your fault. Not even a little bit. It’s just… It just is what it is.”
Kai’s voice cuts off, and for a moment we just stare at each other. His chest is rising and falling rapidly, and there’s a wild look in his eyes that I’ve never seen before.
My feet start moving as if of their own accord. The distance between us shrinks into nothing fast, and yet I keep going. Kai’s expression goes from startled to freaked-out, but I keep moving until there’s nothing between us.
My body isn’t mine anymore. My hands find their way into Kai’s hair as I slam my mouth down on his.
Time freezes.
Sounds cease to exist.
My heartbeats are slamming against the inside of my chest, each thump like a shot of a cannon inside me.
I’m not sure if what we’re doing can even be called kissing since neither of us is really doing anything. Our lips are pressed against each other, and I’m holding onto Kai like my life depends on it, but otherwise we’re completely still.
That is until Kai let’s out a small gasp, and all the want that’s been gathering inside me tumbles forward, drowning every rational thought. I move my lips over Kai’s. Slowly. Testing the kiss out.
Something hot starts building inside me. I’ve never felt anything quite like this before, and when Kai growls and grabs onto me, turning us around and slamming my back against the nearby wall, all the while keeping his lips sealed to mine, the want turns into need.
Kai kisses me like it’s the last thing he gets to do on this Earth. There’s desperation in the way he presses himself against me, devouring my mouth like I’m the best thing he’s ever tasted.
I can’t get enough of this kiss. The way it creates waves of heat that roll over my skin and a zinging pleasure that zips up and down my insides.
Kai is everywhere around me. I’m surrounded by his taste and his smell. His arms are holding me in place, grounding me, allowing me the freedom to try anything I feel like because Kai is here, making me feel safe and good and happy.
I tilt my head to the side and experimentally flick the tip of my tongue over Kai’s bottom lip. Kai’s tongue meets mine, and impossibly, the burning inside me intensifies. Kai lets out a shuddery breath that flutters over my lips like the wings of a butterfly.
And then he suddenly takes it all away as he lets me go and stumbles away from me.
The kiss has stolen my ability to talk, and even if it hadn’t, I don’t know what to say. Unfortunately, Kai’s ability to walk is still very much intact because he just keeps moving further and further away from me.
“Kai.” His name on my lips is confusion and desire and a plea.
He stops and slowly lifts his eyes to meet mine.
“This shouldn’t have happened,” he says in a raspy voice.
“Why?”
“Because you don’t mean it.”
A bark of laughter escapes me.
“Weren’t you here? Did you think I just accidentally fell against your lips with my mouth?”
The look he gives me makes it clear that this is exactly what he thinks happened.
“I want to do it again.” I have no clue where those words are coming from. I just know that they’re one hundred percent true.
Kai stares at me like I’ve gone insane.
“We’re not doing it again. Once was bad enough.”
Okay. So that deflates my determination a bit. I didn’t actually consider the fact that the kiss might