feel pulled towards her, you may think it’s because of Ava. If you're playing the role of therapist, you may assume that after Ava I’m yearning to spark a new flame, so naturally I’m attracted to another taboo. Ava was my patient, and I crossed ethical lines by sleeping with her. Now, I find myself wanting to cross those same lines with Dr. Monroe, but with the roles reversed. I could understand why anyone may think that, but that answer is only partially correct.
The reason I’m attracted to Dr. Monroe has much more to do with her mind than her position as my therapist. She makes me think, and when we have a conversation, I feel challenged. As an intellectual, that’s rare and certainly something I appreciate. Add that to the fact that Dr. Monroe is absolutely gorgeous and sexy as fuck, and there are your reasons why I’m attracted to her.
When she licks her lips, I quiver. When she smiles, my breath catches in my throat. When she locks her eyes with mine, I freeze in place, ready to do anything she asks of me.
I wish it wasn't true, but I’ve developed a serious thing for Dr. Monroe, and although I don't think she has a thing for me, if she said the word, I would bring her to orgasm over and over until her body melted from it right here in this office. Unfortunately, Dr. Monroe isn't like me. She doesn't have the same mind I had when Ava came sauntering into my office. She won’t cross the line, which only makes me want her more.
“Giving me the silent treatment today, Dr. Colson?” Dr. Monroe asks after I take too long to answer. I’ve been overcome with thoughts of her, and I have to pull myself out of it so we can get something out of this session.
“Of course not,” I reply, shaking my head to clear the fog that has gathered inside. “Yes, I am frustrated, but it’s not just today. I've been frustrated for a while now, and therapy isn't working. No offense.”
“None taken,” Dr. Monroe responds after writing something in her notebook. I wish I could get my hands on that. “So, let’s go over your frustration. What’s the cause of it?”
“You know what the cause is. I haven't had sex since I broke up with Ava. This has been the world’s worst dry spell, and I feel frustrated because there's nothing I can do about it. There's no way out for me now.”
“I know we’ve gone over this, but I’m just having a hard time wrapping my head around it, Dr. Colson,” Dr. Monroe goes on. She shakes her head as if my situation is truly baffling to her, which frustrates me more. “You're a good-looking man, I think you know that. You could date. You could go out to bars, or even order prostitutes if that’s your thing. You could have sex, if that’s what this is really about.”
“You know it’s about more than just sex,” I snip. “I’m aware that if I wanted to go out and find a random person to hook up with, I could probably do it, even if the courtship took some time. It’s not that I miss sex, I miss sex with a submissive.”
“Okay, let’s talk about that, because I really need to understand,” Dr. Monroe says. She sits up in her seat and leans forward, locking those blue eyes on me and sending chills coursing over my skin. “I understand your desire for BDSM.”
“I’m not sure you do.”
“But why not have normal sex until you meet someone willing to indulge your fantasies?” she asks, and my head immediately starts to shake back and forth.
“That’s not how it works,” I tell her. “Being a Dom to a submissive is like taking a hit of heroin. Once you do it, you're hooked and there's no going back. I can’t have vanilla sex now. I don't want it.”
“Vanilla sex?”
“That’s what it’s called,” I go on, feeling the frustration surge through me. “Normal people have vanilla sex. It’s boring. It’s repetitive. It’s mundane. It’s predictable. Fucking missionary position with no toys, and two people having to resort to using their imaginations to reach an orgasm. Having thoughts about porn scenes, or ex-lovers, or some other fantasy because the sex isn't good enough on its own. If that’s what you call normal, then I’m gladly abnormal. Normal for me is much different than it is for everybody else, and I like