“Please.”
He slowly eases into me, and I’m reminded of the first time, how careful he was, how watchful he was that he wasn’t hurting me. “Okay?” he asks.
“Yesss. Oh God yes.”
I feel him invading me, and it feels so good—the pressure, the fullness. Like I’ve been missing this forever.
Soon he’s fully inside me, his groin pressed against my ass. We pause. I’m throbbing, on edge, dying to come. He bends over me, his fists lodged on the bed on either side of me. He starts to move, sliding out and in, and the friction is exquisite. He’s so deep inside me, he’s hitting a spot I didn’t know was there, intense and tender and almost unbearably pleasurable. He kisses the back of my shoulder in a long, openmouthed kiss, then I turn my head to the side and he kisses my ear, my cheek, then my shoulder again. As he moves faster, the noises leaking from my mouth become louder, more desperate.
He bands one arm under me, clutching a breast in his big palm as his thrusts become deeper. Harder. I cry out, overflowing with sensation. I feel his breath hot on the back of my neck. Then he straightens, gripping my waist. “Fuck,” he growls. “Watching my cock slide in and out of you…so wet and shiny…your pussy so tight and hot. Your ass…” And he gives one cheek a little slap.
Heat floods through me.
The little spank and his words inflame me even more. I’m beyond thought. I’m floating, rapturous, glowing.
My arms collapse and I drop to the bed, my face buried in a pillow, panting. Josh slows his movements and bends over me again, wrapping his arms around me and tenderly kissing my upper back. “Okay?”
“I’m okay. I’m so good.”
This time when he straightens, he gathers my hair into a loose ponytail and tugs my head back. The pull on my scalp adds to the erotic overload. He thrusts into me again, using both hands to draw my hair back, tugging at the tangled strands. I push up again, my ass in the air as he fucks me, hard and dirty and so, so sweet.
I’m tender inside, the pressure and glide in and out consuming me.
“Wanna make you come,” he rasps.
He slides a hand down and around, under my belly, and finds my clit. His touch jolts a live current through me. This, this, this…it’s what I want…what I need…“Yes,” I whimper. “Please, yes…” I reach down and guide his hand a bit lower…“There! Oh God!”
My orgasm twists inside me, tighter and tighter, then it fractures into a million pieces of light dispersing through me, making me shudder and jerk and wail.
Shaking, I fall to the bed. My hips ache and I slowly stretch my legs out straight on the bed. Josh is still inside me, not moving. Then he slowly slides his legs outside of mine, his hair-rough skin scuffing over mine. He holds himself above me on one arm, nuzzling my hair as I try to catch my breath and stop shaking.
He rocks his pelvis against mine, his lower belly pressing on my ass. “Okay?”
“Yes…”
He shifts his knees higher, outside my hips, giving him better leverage, and his thrusts grow deeper. I think I’m still coming, quivering, my inner muscles clutching at him, and then he shouts and goes tense and still against my butt. I push my ass back at him as he pulses inside me, low groans sounding near my ear.
Later, under the covers, I curl into him and sniff his neck, breathing in his scent, clean with a hint of musky sandalwood. I pull it into my lungs and hold it there, then I lick his collarbone and the hollow of his throat. I’m full of emotion, my heart swollen with it. I’m not sure if sex is always supposed to be like this. But maybe that’s why it’s so powerful and essential and transcendent.
Or maybe it’s Josh. And that’s unnerving.
Chapter 18
Sara
On Wednesday, I pack up my laptop and go over to Josh’s new apartment. It’s easy to get to, in a nice neighborhood near Lincoln Center. I enter the newish high-rise and stop to introduce myself to the doorman, whose name is Javier. I tell him we’re moving in today (saying “we” deliberately so he knows I belong there) then ride the elevator up to the fifteenth floor.
I walk into the empty apartment and sweep my gaze around. It’s nice…shiny hardwood floors throughout, floor-to-ceiling windows with a fabulous view across