around here permanently, because that would be insane. We have only been... well, we aren’t even official, are we? We can’t be thinking about moving in together if we aren’t officially a thing. And even if we were officially a thing, it would only have been for a short time. I couldn’t move that fast and move in with you. I can’t do that. I have a child to think about...”
“Yeah, I know.” I was only half joking really; I honestly wouldn’t mind if she wanted to move in with me. I don’t think it would matter that we don’t know each other too well because it would give us all the time in the world to get to know one another, and I’m so utterly convinced that we are a perfect match that nothing should hold us back... but she’s right. She does need to think about Travis and putting him through such a dramatic change probably wouldn’t be good for him. “But you could just stay here tonight, right? I have a spare room, the room that I used to have when I was a kid, which is perfectly set up for him if he wants to sleep there...”
She eyes me curiously, but I can see the spark behind her gaze. She likes the idea of staying over here for a change just as much as I do.
“I will ask Travis,” she answers non committedly. “And if he wants to, then yes we will stay.”
I have to resist the urge to fist pump the air in excitement. For Aisha to want to come and stay here, it feels like a big step in the right direction for us. Something new. A pointed night spent together, not just us falling into one another’s arms. A sleep over as well. What could be cooler than that?
“Sounds good,” I replied confidently. I’m pretty sure that Travis will jump at the chance to sleep over here. It will be like an adventure for him. “Now, I’m going to get dinner out on the table because I’m sure we are all starving.”
Hmmm, there it is again, that delicious chemistry between us, the feeling that keeps me going all the damn time. I feel like I’m on top of the world when I get that sizzle.
“Let me know if you need a hand.” I love the offer coming from her. It feels really sweet and genuine. “Just me a shout, okay?”
“Thank you, I will.”
All the worry that I have been feeling about Aisha and myself goes out of the window as I walk back into the kitchen. Then again, she does that a lot when we are at the high point of the roller coaster. I know that I shouldn’t get too caught up in this feeling because it probably won’t be long until we come crashing down once again, but I can’t help it. She has made me happier than I ever thought possible, and it’s so easy for me to get caught up in that. That feeling; that fantasy.
But it isn’t just a fantasy anymore. There is a part of it that’s reality, and the more of her layers that I peel back, the more real we become...
12
Aisha
December 27th
It’s been a magical couple of days at Marc’s house. Such a wonderful Christmas with all of us together. Better than I ever could have hoped for. He and I get on so well, there is such a magical connection between the pair of us, I really feel like something could come of it if we allowed it... I know I’m not supposed to be letting anything happen between us, I should be keeping that barrier up like always, but for reason, he seems to bring it down and I can’t seem to stop it. I don’t even want to stop it; I like letting him in. He feels worth it, and he makes me feel really special as well.
It’s like a dream come true, a happy ever after type fantasy, I don’t want to come crashing back to earth but I have to. I have to get Travis back home and get back to our real lives...
“Oh, look, Mommy!” Travis bends down and grabs a stack of mail. “We have so many letters. Do you think they are all Christmas cards?”
I peer over his shoulder and immediately shake my head no. “I don’t think so, sweetie. They all look like bills to me.”
Urgh, talk about crashing back to earth with a bump. I