obviously, because I’m only twenty-four now. So, I guess I was stupid and foolish because of my age.” She lets out a deep sigh. “I wasn’t cheated on like you were, but as soon as I found out that I was having a baby, and after I had already had a lot of trouble with my parents about it, Ronnie immediately made it very obvious that he didn’t love me and that a baby definitely wasn’t in his future.”
Oh wow, so she really was on her own. No wonder she’s lonely.
“That is just awful. How can any guy do that? However young you are a child is half your responsibility. And he hasn’t been in touch since? He hasn’t grown up a bit and decided that he regrets pushing you and Travis out of the picture?”
“Admittedly, he doesn’t know where I am,” she shocks me by telling this. “But I know for sure that he wouldn’t be interested anyway. Getting away from him allowed me to finally see that he was an idiot. Not father material at all.”
I guess that’s something she must be able to see now that she’s a mother. It must be one of those inherent natural instinct things. I am starting to understand Aisha a bit more now. I can see why she is so closed off because it seems to me like not only she has had problems with Travis’s father, but her own parents as well. Perhaps because she got pregnant young, her parents rejected her, and then she lost out on her boyfriend as well, leaving her completely alone. If she has done everything by herself up until this point, no wonder she was upset by what I had done.
“So, I guess we both are in similar boats then?” Aisha tosses her head back and laughs. “Both absolutely hopeless in love... Always falling for the wrong people.”
This doesn’t seem like a dig at me, this thing is just like something she is saying to show how much we have bonded today. Perhaps it’s a sign that she wants to be my friend. Much as I want more from her, I would love to be her friend because it’s a start, and it also gives us both someone to talk to. I’m starting to see more and more that we both need that.
“I guess so,” I agree with her. “But perhaps that’s because we were both so young when we fell in love the first time around. Maybe if we do it when we are older, we will be better at it.”
“I would like to think so... but I think you will have a better chance at it than me. You are a handsome man, a successful man, one without any baggage.”
“I don’t think you should see having a child as baggage. Travis is lovely, any man would be lucky to have him in his life.”
She blushes brightly in her cheeks making her look even more cute than before. I really like her little shy side.
“I think you might be the only person that thinks that way. I don’t think the people see it that way. I haven’t exactly tried, but I don’t imagine it’s easy to date as a single mom.”
“I don’t know much about that, but I don’t imagine someone as cute as you would struggle. You’re very beautiful, I’m sure you already realize I think that about you.”
“Not at all,” she gasps in shock. “I didn’t know you felt that way about me.”
“I wouldn’t have asked you out on a date if I didn’t think that about you.”
I don’t think we’re going to be getting anywhere with the whole date thing right now. Not that I mind, I just want her to know how beautiful I think she is.
“Oh, well...” She doesn’t seem to know what to say about that. She tucks her hair behind her ears and averts her eyes away from me. I can’t help but notice though that she’s managed to look at me today more than ever before. First in anger, second in this friendly conversation. It’s really nice. I love staring into her eyes, I could do it all day long. “Thank you.”
I have drained my coffee cup, it’s probably time for me to think about leaving, especially considering we have sorted everything out now, but I really don’t want to go. I’m having too much of a good time with Aisha, I really am enjoying this conversation with her, but I’m going to have to