is no going back from here. The bed creaks underneath us and his aunt and uncle can probably hear us, but neither of us cares. We just want to make it to the finish line, and I can sense he’s going to get there pretty quickly.
“You are so fuckin’ sexy,” he grunts, lowering his head so his mouth is right next to my ear. I dig my nails into his back, holding on to him as he races to the final pump.
Then he groans and explodes. I can’t stop moving. I’m thrusting my hips up and down to match his motion as he shoots his seed inside me. His cum is filling me. I can feel my own juices helping him slide in and out. I want more and more and more…
Reed’s thrusts are beginning to slow now, and I can feel the air leaving my lungs. I’m still shaking from the intensity of the experience. The sheet is wet underneath us. I don’t even care about that. He stares into my eyes one last time and then slowly pulls himself out.
I gasp when he rolls over to my side. Without him there covering me, I suddenly feel very naked.
I didn’t want him to stop. I couldn’t have asked for a more fulfilling first time. I look over at him with gratitude and see him staring blankly up at the ceiling.
I feel like something is wrong.
13
Reed
I want to tell her this was not a part of my plan. Yeah, sure, there was a part of me that hoped we would end up sharing the same bed on this trip. I wanted her and wanted to find a way to make her mine, but I didn’t plan to do it this way. It just happened.
Secondly, I had no idea she was a virgin. Would I have approached things differently if I knew? Maybe.
But I know I haven’t pushed her into doing anything she didn’t want to do. Even though it was her first time, it didn’t feel like that for me. Everything about Ella is crazy sexy and I want her even more now.
We’re both lying in bed, staring up at the ceiling. There’s a table lamp turned on in the room, but the light isn’t too bright. It’s perfect. But then it hits me where I am: in my cousin Jerry’s childhood room. I have just spent the whole day with people who are technically my family, but I have only scratched the surface of getting to know them.
I rub a hand over my face. I feel like I’m beginning to lose my mind. I should have a handle on things. I should know what I’m going to do next, but I don’t.
I just have one more day left here with them, and after that, I’m gone. I want to disappear into thin air. I don’t want them to find me. The best thing I can do for myself and everyone involved is to go back to normal. Even though it looks like they want to make space for me in their lives, I don’t know if I can make space for them.
“Are you okay?” Ella’s voice is soft beside me. I turn to look at her. Her eyes have grown big; she’s maybe a little worried.
“I should be asking you that question,” I say with a grin. She blushes and looks away. She’s still naked next to me, and it’s a great feeling.
“I’m fine. I’m great!” she exclaims, a little giggly. I sit up for a moment to pull the covers back over us and then move an arm over her. She lifts herself up so she can snuggle into the crook of my arm, pasting herself to my body. I love the smell of her and the warmth of her.
What else do I love about her? Love?
I have to push the lump down my throat.
“I’m glad I came with you on this trip,” she continues.
“Thank you for coming. I guess I needed the support. A familiar face.”
“I’m still not too happy about the fact that we’re lying to them.”
“We’re doing a pretty good job, though,” I say, and we both smile at each other. I can see her fingering the wedding ring. Technically, it’s not fake. It’s solid gold. Just like mine.
“I didn’t think I would ever be married; now I get a little taste of it,” I say, and Ella laughs throatily.
“I’m sorry for not being the most dutiful wife,” she says, and I lean in to