was, how intense their sex was, and by this point I think my chest is going to collapse. I want to burst into tears, but I won’t.
“So why don’t you try and see if something’s still there? Ben needs to be tamed, like badly. Maybe you are the just the girl to do it.” Jessica says with a wink.
Breathe Megan. You can do it. Just breathe.
“Well the other night when he was in our villa, hanging out with Megan, he looked mighty fine.” Michelle says biting her lip.
“Oh God, he’s so hot.” Stephanie says with a chuckle, “There is no doubt about that.”
“What better timing, than in a tropical paradise at a wedding reception to see if something is still there.” Jessica squeals.
Okay, it’s official. I think my heart just exploded in my chest.
“Would you care Megan?” Michelle says looking at me with all the seriousness in the world.
But before I can respond, Jessica interjects, “She’s with Steven, why would she care?”
“Well, you know…” Stephanie smirks and waves her freshly manicured hand in the air.
“No, I don’t know.” I say, now completely flippant.
“But Megan’s with Steven, and her and Ben are just friends.” Jessica persists, once again adding her two cents.
“I am not with Steven, so drop it.” I shout looking over at Jessica.
Jessica’s makes a sound of shock and crosses her arms in front of her chest. I don’t care if she’s pissed at me. She needs to know when she has crossed the line, and she needs to stop speaking for me all the time. I have had it.
Then I dart my piercing blue eyes at Stephanie, “I don’t care what you do. Ben doesn’t belong to me. He never has and he never will.”
Chapter 15
I have to keep on telling myself that seriously, I’m fine. I even take deep breaths, and convince myself I don’t care in the slightest that Ben and Stephanie, once (maybe twice or worse thrice) slept together. I make myself believe I don’t care that Stephanie’s eyes lit up when she rehashed their secret sex-escapade, or that she looked flushed and giddy when she provided us with the graphic details about his package. I try not to care that Ben hid all of this from me, and I try even harder not to pass out from the pain in my heart, but I should have known. It was so obvious…
Stephanie constantly looks to Ben for attention, and annoyingly so. Batting her eyes, using a baby voice, and jumping at any chance to touch him with her perfectly manicured nails. Not to mention her sexually aggressive behavior, coupled with her natural beauty (cat like eyes and super-model body), makes her 100% Ben material. I could just see her swaying her perfect hips from side to side and seducing him with no problems at all. I gag at the thought of them being intimate together and it makes me sick with jealously.
I am utterly heartbroken. I am his second dirty little secret of the month. What a scumbag! This is why I tried to stop this from going any further that morning in my condo. This is why I flat out said it was a mistake. But unlike Ben, I actually valued our friendship. I guess I was the only one smart enough to know that sex only complicates everything.
By mid afternoon, we say our goodbyes to the Spa and a good chunk of my bank account. We walk back to our villa, while I schlep behind and kick random pebbles. Jessica takes off down a separate cobblestone road, and tells us she will be by our villa in twenty minutes. I wave her goodbye, and listen to Stephanie and Michelle chitchat about what they are going to wear tonight. I feel so crummy that all I want to do is toss on a pair of pajamas and go to bed. But unfortunately, I have a bachelorette party to attend.
Twenty minutes later, I rifle through my luggage, feeling hopelessly lost in what to wear. Everything looks grey and frumpy, crumbled and disorganized. I glance over at Stephanie and Michelle holding dresses up against one another and debating on which one looks better for tonight. Jessica appears out of nowhere, pushing herself through the doorway. She walks in beautifully dressed, wearing the most stunning long sleeved purple hued skin-tight dress. It sparkles all over, making her vibrant and fantastically gorgeous. Stephanie and Michelle gawk at her, and tell her she looks amazing. She gives us a