I suddenly felt embarrassed. His mouth opened, and he plopped his thumb in his mouth, sucking on it with a hunger that made me ready to strip his clothes and slide him inside of me. I wanted to feel full of Kai. “You taste so sweet. Next time, I want you to ride my face, Little Whisper.”
I gasped at his heated words. I could feel his hard cock against my thigh. I’d known that guys got blue balls, but I had no idea what to do about it. I felt bad that Kai had given me an orgasm but had no relief. I reached for his abs and trailed to the waistband of his board shorts, prepared to feel him—please him.
Kai’s hand shot out and wrapped around my wrist. “Nope,” he said softly, making me frown. “Today is about you. There will be plenty of time for that.” I blanched. Did he not want me to? Was he worried I’d be bad? Kai must have noticed the fear on my face, because he spoke again. “Don’t get me wrong. I want nothing more than to let you touch me. I want to slip inside your wet, tight pussy and come hard while you’re clenching my cock. I want your sweet mouth wrapped around me. I want to fuck you everywhere. Anywhere. I want you to ride me and fall apart.” I was about ready to do all those things. I struggled against his grip, seeking his dick. “But not today,” Kai added with a grin. “Today is about you. Today, I’m going to hold you.”
I let out a shaky breath, then smiled. I felt truly safe in Kai’s care. We had a lot to discuss and work through. I wasn’t sure about Lex and what was happening. But I liked this. Our moment together was special. It was the start of something new. It was the start of us.
“Okay,” I replied, feeling lame for not having hot words to reciprocate with. All I had was the promise that I’d try. And even though I knew the guilt would soon come, the doubt, the fear, the all-consuming grief, I pushed it all away for now. I placed my head against his chest and stroked his skin. I let Kai Lewis hold me. I let the world slip away.
Dear Diary,
I’m scared. Do you ever think about what happens when you’re gone? I’m not sure how this is going to end. But I know I’ll miss him. How can I love someone capable of causing so much pain? What does that say about me, Diary?
XOXO,
Violet
Firm knocking on the door snapped us out of our blissful state. Kai groaned but didn’t move to get out of the bed. He pulled me a little tighter with the heavy arm that was already wrapped around me.
“Maybe if we stay really quiet, whoever it is will go away,” he whispered playfully, kissing the top of my head. He trailed his fingers down my collar bone and palmed my naked breast, caressing my nipple.
“I’m not going to be able to keep quiet if you keep doing that,” I replied, my words came out low and throaty. I almost didn’t recognize my own voice, full of lust.
The knocking returned, more insistent than before. Kai grinned at me mischievously and pinched my nipple before swinging a leg out of bed. As he stood, I could see the massive bulge in his boxer briefs begging for relief. He reached down to adjust himself and pulled on some shorts, not bothering with a shirt. He smoothed his hair down and reached down to softly kiss my lips.
“Don’t move. When I come back, I want to pick up where we left off,” he teased as he walked out of the small bedroom.
I heard the front door open, and the bus was immediately full of Lex’s booming voice demanding to know what Kai told the police. My entire body stiffened, and I was very aware of my nakedness. Getting out of bed as quietly as I could, I scrambled to pull on whatever clothes I could find, while silently praying that Lex wasn’t going to come back here. I wasn’t trying to eavesdrop, but the bus also wasn’t anywhere near soundproof, and I could hear everything they said.
“How the fuck did you let yourself get arrested?”
“I didn’t get arrested, Lex. But even if I did, there’s not much I could have done about it.”
“Then why don’t you tell me exactly what happened,” Lex bullied.