father would come into the sick-room. He was always very gentle if anyone were ill. But he disturbed the atmosphere for the boy.
“Are ter asleep, my darlin’?” Morel asked softly.
“No; is my mother comin’?”
“She’s just finishin’ foldin’ the clothes. Do you want anything?” Morel rarely “thee’d” his son.
“I don’t want nothing. But how long will she be?”
“Not long, my duckie.”
The father waited undecidedly on the hearth-rug for a moment or two. He felt his son did not want him. Then he went to the top of the stairs and said to his wife:
“This childt’s axin’ for thee; how long art goin’ to be?”
“Until I’ve finished, good gracious! Tell him to go to sleep.”
“She says you’re to go to sleep,” the father repeated gently to Paul.
“Well, I want her to come,” insisted the boy.
“He says he can’t go off till you come,” Morel called downstairs.
“Eh, dear! I shan’t be long. And do stop shouting downstairs. There’s the other children—”
Then Morel came again and crouched before the bed-room fire. He loved a fire dearly.
“She says she won’t be long,” he said.
He loitered about indefinitely. The boy began to get feverish with irritation. His father’s presence seemed to aggravate all his sick impatience. At last Morel, after having stood looking at his son awhile, said softly:
“Good-night, my darling.”
“Good-night,” Paul replied, turning round in relief to be alone.
Paul loved to sleep with his mother. Sleep is still most perfect, in spite of hygienists, when it is shared with a beloved. The warmth, the security and peace of soul, the utter comfort from the touch of the other, knits the sleep,3 so that it takes the body and soul completely in its healing. Paul lay against her and slept, and got better; whilst she, always a bad sleeper, fell later on into a profound sleep that seemed to give her faith.
In convalescence he would sit up in bed, see the fluffy horses feeding at the troughs in the field, scattering their hay on the trodden yellow snow; watch the miners troop home—small, black figures trailing slowly in gangs across the white field. Then the night came up in dark blue vapour from the snow.
In convalescence everything was wonderful. The snowflakes, suddenly arriving on the window-pane, clung there a moment like swallows, then were gone, and a drop of water was crawling down the glass. The snowflakes whirled round the corner of the house, like pigeons dashing by. Away across the valley the little black train crawled doubtfully over the great whiteness.
While they were so poor, the children were delighted if they could do anything to help economically. Annie and Paul and Arthur went out early in the morning, in summer, looking for mushrooms, hunting through the wet grass, from which the larks were rising, for the white-skinned, wonderful naked bodies crouched secretly in the green. And if they got half a pound they felt exceedingly happy: there was the joy of finding something, the joy of accepting something straight from the hand of Nature, and the joy of contributing to the family exchequer.
But the most important harvest, after gleaning for frumenty,bm was the blackberries. Mrs. Morel must buy fruit for puddings on the Saturdays; also she liked blackberries. So Paul and Arthur scoured the coppices,bn and woods and old quarries, so long as a blackberry was to be found, every week-end going on their search. In that region of mining villages blackberries became a comparative rarity. But Paul hunted far and wide. He loved being out in the country, among the bushes. But he also could not bear to go home to his mother empty. That, he felt, would disappoint her, and he would have died rather.
“Good gracious!” she would exclaim as the lads came in, late, and tired to death, and hungry, “wherever have you been?”
“Well,” replied Paul, “there wasn’t any, so we went over Misk Hills. And look here, our mother!”
She peeped into the basket.
“Now, those are fine ones!” she exclaimed.
“And there’s over two pounds—isn’t there over two pounds?”
She tried the basket.
“Yes,” she answered doubtfully.
Then Paul fished out a little spray. He always brought her one spray, the best he could find.
“Pretty!” she said, in a curious tone, of a woman accepting a love-token.
The boy walked all day, went miles and miles, rather than own himself beaten and come home to her empty-handed. She never realised this, whilst he was young. She was a woman who waited for her children to grow up. And William occupied her chiefly.
But when William went to Nottingham,