affecting, than the first one we shared.
I was breathless when he pulled back this time.
"I have no idea what I'm doing," J.J. said.
I huffed out a light laugh. "Neither do I," I admitted.
I truly didn't. I hadn't planned for this to happen. I never would have dreamed he would kiss me the way he did. That I would feel this way when he touched me.
His hands curved around my waist, molding my body as though he wanted to memorize the shape of it.
"Any thoughts on what we should do next?" he asked.
"I don't know, but it should definitely involve more kissing," I answered.
There was that smile again. Dear God, it could have been used as a weapon. Or a tool to bring about world peace.
"I can do that."
He leaned toward me but stopped when the bar on the exit door creaked as though someone was about to come outside.
"Damn, this isn't much better than the dance floor," he said, shaking his head.
Though it was nine o'clock at night, the rising moon was nearly full. I could make out most of his features, but the pale light cast dark shadows beneath his brow and cheekbones, giving him a slightly sinister look.
I was definitely in trouble though, because that sinister look didn't put me off in the least.
J.J. took a step back. "Having second thoughts?" he asked.
I shook my head and reached for his hand. "No. You?"
"No."
I stared up into his face, and though the shadows hid his eyes, I knew he was looking down at me.
"Come home with me," I murmured.
His fingers tightened around mine. "Are you sure that's a good idea?"
"I don't care. It's what I want."
For the first time in my life, I didn't care about plans. I wasn't thinking about my goals or the steps I needed to take to reach them.
I wanted instant gratification.
I wanted the chaos.
I wanted Jackson James McClane.
Even if it was just for one night.
2
My hands trembled as I drove home. Every few seconds, I would glance in the rearview mirror to check and see if J.J.'s headlights were still there.
The tremors that shook my extremities weren't from fear or regret. Yes, I was a bit nervous, but more, I was excited.
I was about to get something I'd always wanted—a night with J.J. McClane.
There were nerves there. I worried that I would do something he didn't like. Or that he would realize I was a virgin and call the whole thing off.
But that was unlikely to happen. It was only in the most technical sense that I was a virgin.
I may not have had sex with a man before, but I had purchased a couple of toys when I'd moved into my own home.
As long as I lived with my parents, I wouldn't have dared. If my brothers had found my discreet vibrator or the extremely life-like dildo I'd purchased, they would have tormented me endlessly and without mercy.
The only thing that might give away my inexperience was how I responded to him. How I touched him.
I didn't have time to ponder it any longer because there was my driveway, up ahead on the left.
I flicked on my blinker and turned into it, following the long, winding gravel drive for nearly a quarter-mile until it stopped at the carport on the side of what was once my grandmother's house but now belonged to me.
I parked the car and shut it off. I stared out the windshield and took a couple of deep breaths before I climbed out. J.J. was getting out of his truck as well and he came around the front of his vehicle toward me.
"I didn't realize your grandmother left you her house," he said.
I shrugged. "I was surprised, too, but my mom and brothers didn't seem to mind, so I moved in when I graduated with my bachelor's." I took my keys out of my clutch. "Follow me."
J.J. was a solid presence behind me as I climbed the two concrete steps on the side of the house that led into the screened porch.
I unlocked the screen door and crossed to the side door leading to the house.
J.J. didn't speak as I unlocked that door and went inside. He shut the door behind us and turned the lock.
That small gesture seemed to emphasize the fact that we were now alone.
I hadn't turned on the overhead light, so the only illumination came from the small fixture over the sink that I left on at night so I could see if I needed a