of daylight had left the sky. “Isn’t it a bit late for that?” he asked.
“Not with two strong men as escorts,” she said, “and besides, the streets in Mayfair are well lit. We shall be perfectly safe.” She turned to her husband. “What do you say, darling?”
“I have an appointment this evening,” John said, consulting his pocket watch, “but you should go with Michael.”
More proof that John had no idea of Michael’s feelings.
“The two of you always have such a fine time together,” John added.
Francesca turned to Michael and smiled, worming her way another inch into his heart. “Will you?” she asked. “I’m desperate for a spot of fresh air now that the rain has stopped. And I’ve been feeling rather odd all day, I must say.”
“Of course,” Michael replied, since they all knew that he had no appointments. His was a life of carefully cultivated dissolution.
Besides, he couldn’t resist her. He knew he should stay away, knew he should never allow himself to be alone in her company. He would never act upon his desires, but truly, did he really need to subject himself to this sort of agony? He’d just end the day alone in bed, wracked by guilt and desire, in almost equal measures.
But when she smiled at him he couldn’t say no. And he certainly wasn’t strong enough to deny himself an hour in her presence.
Because her presence was all he was ever going to get. There would never be a kiss, never a meaningful glance or touch. There would be no whispered words of love, no moans of passion.
All he could have was her smile and her company, and pathetic idiot that he was, he was willing to take it.
“Just give me a moment,” she said, pausing in the doorway. “I need to get my coat.”
“Be quick about it,” John said. “It’s already after seven.”
“I’ll be safe enough with Michael to protect me,” she said with a jaunty smile, “but don’t worry, I’ll be quick.” And then she offered her husband a wicked smile. “I’m always quick.”
Michael averted his eyes as his cousin actually blushed. Lord above, but he truly did not want to know the meaning behind I’ll be quick. Unfortunately, it could have been any number of things, all of them deliciously sexual. And he was likely to spend the next hour cataloguing them all in his mind, imagining them being done to him.
He tugged at his cravat. Maybe he could get out of this jaunt with Francesca. Maybe he could go home and draw a cold bath. Or better yet, find himself a willing woman with long chestnut hair. And if he was lucky, blue eyes as well.
“I’m sorry about that,” John said, once Francesca had left.
Michael’s eyes flew to his face. Surely John would never mention Francesca’s innuendo.
“Her nagging,” John added. “You’re young enough. You don’t need to be married yet.”
“You’re younger than I,” Michael said, mostly to be contrary.
“Yes, but I met Francesca.” John shrugged helplessly, as if that ought to be explanation enough. And of course it was.
“I don’t mind her nagging,” Michael said.
“Of course you do. I can see it in your eyes.”
And that was the problem. John could see it in his eyes. There was no one in the world who knew him better. If something was bothering him, John would always be able to tell. The miracle was that John didn’t realize why Michael was distressed.
“I will tell her to leave you alone,” John said, “although you should know that she only nags because she loves you.”
Michael managed a tight smile. He certainly couldn’t manage words.
“Thank you for taking her for a walk,” John said, standing up. “She’s been a bit peckish all day, with the rain. Said she’s been feeling uncommonly closed in.”
“When is your appointment?” Michael asked.
“Nine o’clock,” John replied as they walked out into the hall. “I’m meeting Lord Liverpool.”
“Parliamentary business?”
John nodded. He took his position in the House of Lords very seriously. Michael had often wondered if he’d have approached the duty with as much gravity, had he been born a lord.
Probably not. But then again, it didn’t much matter, did it?
Michael watched as John rubbed his left temple. “Are you all right?” he asked. “You look a little . . .” He didn’t finish the sentence, since he wasn’t quite certain how John looked. Not right. That was all he knew.
And he knew John. Inside and out. Probably better than Francesca did.
“Devil of a headache,” John muttered. “I’ve had it all