on him if I can help it, but my mind always wonders back to our short encounter. As much as my body longs for him, I’m glad he never came back for me. I’m sure someone more worthy than me is out there for him. I hope he finds the peace and the love he so desperately craves from a nice girl with a clean past. I pray that the universe has a good life in store for him after all the tragedies he and his family had to endure.
I’ve watched the video of Louis and Isabella. I’ve watched it countless times, always learning something new. I wish for Liam to one day see this footage for himself; it would help him let go of some of his misplaced hurt and pain. Seeing Liam’s beautiful sister for the first time, knowing her tragic end, was an incredibly painful experience, but it brought closure to her story for me. Isabella Knight was, in fact, a stunning woman and in many ways reminds me of her beautiful brother. The footage clearly shows Louis having a fight with her in his apartment, telling Isa that he would not take part in any crazy orgy she’d orchestrated on his behalf. He pleaded with her, cautioning her to stop trying to get attention from the wrong people and start respecting herself more. He even threatened to call her father if she didn’t start taking better care of herself. He was worried about her drug use and the company she kept. He practically begged her not to get involved with men that proposed short-term affection and lived a despicable kind of life that involved drugs and unsafe, dangerous sex.
The tape also shows Isabella’s plea-bargain with Louis, which was that if he declared to all his friends that he loved her, only then would she call everything off. It’s clear that Isabella Knight had tried to manipulate Louis Bruel to commit and become involved with her as more than just a friend. Louis apologized over and over and tried, but failed, to explain to Isa that he cared for her as a friend and not as a lover. He informed her that Phillip had real feelings for her and that she should stop taunting him and give him a chance. The footage clearly shows she had real psychological problems when she began threatening to destroy Louis’ career and kill herself and him if he didn’t continue to have sex with her and tell her that he loved her. I believe that Louis was present at that private, debauched party that Liam had pictures of to make sure that nothing bad happened to Isabella, because he knew she wasn’t well. She definitely wasn’t his girlfriend, but he still felt responsible for her because she cared about him. Louis Bruel may be many things, but he’s still a good guy.
I no longer speak ‘80s with Em since our language’s inception was the result of an alibi needed for my web of lies. We speak the truth now and I don’t need to hide behind lyrics anymore. We sometimes slip and digress back to our beloved lyrical dialect, but most of the time, we’re good. I’m excited for this new chapter in my life and I can’t wait to see what the future holds for me.
One Month Later
“Still Loving You” by The Scorpions
I left London almost two years ago—a place I once called home. It won’t ever feel like home again, but at least I can go see my sister’s resting place whenever I please. I’ve had several meetings with my father now that we’re in the same country. He acts as if nothing has happened to our broken family, as if it’s no big deal that we haven’t spoken to one another since my sister was laid to rest. I can’t say that he treats me poorly; he just treats me like one of his employees and not like his only son. Not once has he gone off course to ask if I’m all right, or how I’m doing and what’s new in my life. My mum is always too busy for us to meet; she has too many obligations to try and fit her only child in for a visit. I’m not cross with her, and I love her enough to comprehend that she just can’t stand to look at me and see my sister’s blue eyes gazing back at her. I’ve been to Isa’s grave five times