around each other’s waists in the schoolyard. They were merciless, Anna recalls, in their pursuit of a boy named Geoff, with whom they were both infatuated; they circled the poor thing on their bicycles, chanting, Chicken Legs, yoo-hoo, Chicken Legs! Now Monika has a skinny boy of her own. She flashes Anna an over-bright smile.
Can I get anyone something else? Anna asks, sliding her hands to the small of her back. Because if not, I think we’re going to close a little early.
No, no, we’re all settled. Thank you.
You get some rest. That’s the most important thing.
Yes, rest, Anna. It shouldn’t be long now?
Another month, Anna says.
That long! I’d expect it to be tomorrow. Not that you don’t look the picture of health—
Yes, you’re positively glowing with it. You’ll have no trouble, no trouble at all, a young healthy girl like you.
As the women leave, Anna follows them to the door to lock up. She is indeed exhausted; the fantasies that once featured Max now center around sleep, endless sleep on a soft bed. But at night, rest eludes her. She hoists her nightgown to stare in horrified fascination at her belly, which seems an entity quite separate from herself, as round and hard as a moon. By day, dressed and draped in an apron, she is as large as Mathilde.
Anna throws the bolt and draws the lace curtains across the bakery’s storefront window; the blackout shade will be pulled later. Thus concealed from view, she lingers in the chilly zone of air near the pane. As she suspected they would, the women have congregated in a loose knot on the street. Their faint voices reach her through the glass.
I always thought Mathilde Staudt a kind woman, but to work that poor girl so hard in her eighth month—
Come now, don’t bad-mouth Mathilde. Who else would take her in? Would you, Bettina?
I don’t care what you say, I never saw a pregnant woman look more peaked. Anyone can see she’s inches away from collapse.
She wouldn’t be if she’d get the proper rest. The way Mathilde works her is a sin.
Sin, ha! That’s an appropriate word, isn’t it, considering the way this baby was conceived!
For shame, Monika. I’m surprised at you. I thought you were her friend.
Well, I was, but— That was a long time ago, when I was just a girl. How could I have known what kind of person she is?
But it’s not Anna’s fault, you know that. She couldn’t help what happened to her.
Don’t tell me you believe that fish story Frau Staudt fed us.
Well, I . . . Not really.
Nor I.
I certainly don’t.
However you want to look at it, it’s broken her father’s heart, I can tell you that much. Did you know he’s left town?
No!
No.
Yes, I did hear something along those lines—
It’s true. The last time Grete Hortschaft went out there to clean his house, she found it locked up and dark. And have you seen him going into his office lately?
Well, no, now that you mention it . . .
I heard he’s gone to Berlin, to act as legal counsel to the Reich. Drowning his sorrows in his work, I’ll wager.
Pah! Herr Brandt’s not that sentimental a fellow. He’s escaping the scandal, that’s all.
Well, whatever way you want to look at it, it’s destroyed him in Weimar.
Poor man.
Poor fellow...
The flock moves off down the street, dawdling, heads together.
Anna turns from the window, her mouth crimped in a wry smile. She has known all along that there must be some reason why Gerhard hasn’t come in search of her; how could he relinquish his handmaid, his valet and laundress, his personal chef ? So he has gone away, has he? Whether he has fled to Berlin or some other city, Anna knows that Bettina Borschert has come closest to the truth: Gerhard is hardly heartbroken. Either his sycophancy has finally secured him a better position or he is escaping arrest on charges of abetting race defilement. In any case, he is saving his own skin.
But there is one thing Anna doesn’t know. She carries the trays from the display case into the kitchen, where Mathilde is wrapping unsold goods in brown paper and marking reduced prices on them for the next day. Anna drops the sheets of metal in the sink with a resounding clang, but the baker doesn’t look up.
Anna scrubs the trays and stacks them in their racks, then rinses her mouth with water. Recently she has been plagued by a bad taste, like