moaned louder, and pleasure shot down my spine knowing Hanna liked the bite of pain with her pleasure. I leaned in and bit the soft skin of her neck.
Her head pressed back against my shoulder, her thighs held wide, her back arched and she came with a silent scream, her mouth open wide.
“That’s it, baby. Come. Feel your pleasure. Look at you, controlling your body. So fucking good.”
I slowed my fingers as she slowed hers until she lay panting in my arms. Kissing up her neck, I whispered, “You did so well, Hanna. I’m so proud of you.”
She turned her head to me, and I forced myself to not lean in. Again, her full lips were mere inches from mine, damp from her tongue slicking across them, begging for me to have a taste.
“Thank you, Daniel. Thank you,” she breathed.
Rules were rules. We had them for a reason, and the ache building in my chest was the perfect reminder to hold back.
“Any time.”
“Tonight was perfect.” She giggled once her breathing evened out. “I can’t believe I made myself come again, and I liked it.”
Her words pierced my chest, hating what was taken from her. But then she giggled again, and I was honored to give her something to feel light enough to giggle about.
“I think I’ll need a second drink now.”
“I can get one for you if you’d like, but we’re not done yet.”
She looked up, her eyes still glossy from her orgasm, filled with a mixture of shock and excitement.
“How do you feel about third base?”
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Hanna
Third base?
I quickly scrambled through my high school memories of what the bases were.
First was kissing, second was hands, third was…
“You want me to do oral?” I breathed, feeling my eyes widen. Surprisingly, with Daniel’s length still pressed to my back, I didn’t hate the idea.
“No. No,” Daniel rushed out. “I want you to receive.” He licked his lips, and I couldn’t help but imagine what his tongue would feel like between my legs. Would it be softer than his fingers? Just as firm? “Tonight is about you accepting your pleasure.”
“Ummm.” I sat up and considered my options, shifting my clothes back in place. I could give in to the pressure on my chest and say no because I was scared of how I’d react. We could have drinks, and I’d go home wondering what it would have been like. Or I could try. I could trust Daniel to stop if I needed him to—to not judge me if I did end up flipping out. I could take a step forward in a safe place with no regrets.
Hell yes, Han-Han. Let the man eat your pussy, Sofia’s voice rang in my head.
“Okay.”
His smile spread slowly, making me smile too.
“How do you want me?”
“Not here.”
Daniel stood and adjusted his length, tucking it out of his way, and there was something so alluring about watching a man touch himself. What would it be like to touch him? Would I feel powerful like the other women did when they pleased their lovers?
Not that Daniel was my lover.
Just a friend, I reminded myself.
With each step down the hall, a new doubt crept in. What would it feel like to have his shoulders between my thighs? Would he think I looked weird? Would he think I tasted weird? A mixture of anxiety and giddiness swirled through my belly like a swarm of butterflies.
But I didn’t mind the anxiety because, for the first time in my life, it was based around fears any woman would have with a man for the first time. They weren’t about feeling trapped or sent to a flashback, they were average, basic fears.
So focused on my own thoughts, I bumped into Daniel’s back when he stopped walking. Standing in front of the door, he turned and lifted my chin with his finger. “We can stop whenever you want. Okay?”
“Okay.”
At my confirmation, he moved right, going into the performance room and not the viewing room. I followed, stumbling over numb feet.
“Umm, Daniel?”
Did he want to perform oral while people watched? Holy shit. This was a whole new level of fear I hadn’t even considered. I scrambled with an excuse to get out of that room before my chest caved under the weight of anxiety.
He faced me with a soothing smile. “Don’t worry, we’re not performing.”
He hit a button on the wall, and the black glass faded to clear, showing an empty viewing room beyond. I almost collapsed from relief, breathing for the first time since entering