entangled myself with the man who has your heart. He’s nothing like you. In fact, he is the antithesis of you. He smokes, drinks, and hates me. He’s mean to everyone, but there’s something else there, something broken in his eyes that tells me he’s had a hard life. There are also moments of sweetness where I think he’s just a diamond that needs polishing. He reminds me of the restaurants we have saved. I think I can save him … and by doing that, I can somehow be of use to someone in this world.
I miss you so much it hurts, I wish you were here.
Millie
As I lay there in my sweaty, greasy clothes, unshowered and without bed linens, I made a promise to myself.
I would give this guy thirty days. Thirty days of the best Millie I could be. I would do it for Colin. If he wasn’t a better person with a better life by then, then he was hopeless and not worth saving.
This would be my hardest project yet, but I was determined to have a good outcome.
I awoke early the next morning with a new outlook.
Kill him with kindness.
That was my new motto. I was going to force Ashton to be a decent human being by reflecting my amazing and cheerful self at him.
I crept downstairs and out onto the street, before getting into my rental car and going to the farmers market. I’d had to call the rental company and get a few days extension, you know because I’d lost my mind and decided to stay here.
These motherfucking nachos were going to have some fresh onion and guacamole on them if it killed me.
Everything at the farmers market was fifty percent cheaper than in New York City. I was able to get a variety of fresh vegetables, soft cheeses, honey, coconuts and bulk grains that I could grind into my own flour blends. I was basically in chef heaven.
Before I knew it, I’d filled the back seat of my rental with baskets of food.
“Do you deliver to restaurants in bulk?” I asked the guy who helped me to my car.
He nodded. “Of course. We can set up a weekly revolving delivery if you like.”
I knew that Ashton wouldn’t reimburse me for today, but if people started ordering more food and he made more money, then maybe he would start investing a bit more.
“I’ll let you know. Thanks.”
I made one more pit stop, to a sketchy address from craigslist that was selling a fridge for a hundred dollars. For another twenty he offered to follow me to the restaurant with his truck and carry it inside.
I was feeling pretty damn proud of myself by the time I rolled into the restaurant at ten a.m. Ashton sat bleary-eyed and barely awake behind the counter. He had a stack of papers spread out before him and looked up at me as I entered.
I was wearing my floral sundress from yesterday, my only other outfit, and my hands were full of food, while Javier and his cousin from craigslist brought the fridge in behind me.
“What the fuck is all this?!” Ashton gestured wide-eyed to the food and the men.
They froze.
“In the kitchen, boys. Thanks.” I ignored Ashton and directed them where to go.
Walking right up to the bar, I slammed the crate of avocadoes, tomatoes, onions and jalapenos down. The key to my guacamole was extra fresh garlic, so I got a lot of that too.
“I’m changing up the menu. I figure as head chef I have the right to do that.” I tipped my chin high.
His lip twitched. “Head chef? Is that what you’re calling yourself now?”
I nodded. “I don’t expect reimbursement for this delivery. I think you’ll see with some decent food, this place will make more than enough money to cover future orders.”
Then I slammed the check down with first and last months’ rent, giving him a sweet smile.
I turned to bring the stuff out back and his hand snaked out, grabbing my wrist gently.
When I looked down at him, there was a vulnerability there. “Millie…” He sighed. “Don’t waste your time trying to change the menu or buying a fridge. I’m selling the place before it goes into foreclosure.”
He let my wrist go softly and held up a paper that looked like a purchase contract. The defeated look on his face made my heart sink.
“What? You just hired me.” Shock ripped through me. Was I surprised this place wasn’t earning money? No. But …