staring at the wall of liquor bottles behind the bar.
Opening his mouth, Blay intended to say something, but instead he just ran that monologue through again from start to finish. Jesus Christ...
And then something dawned on him.
If I'm gay, why are you the only male I've ever been with.
Suddenly, all of the blood drained out of Blay's head as he deciphered the truth in the words he'd so grossly misconstrued. That meant...that that night when he'd...
"Oh, God," he said in a low voice.
"So that's where I am," the fighter said gruffly. "You want a drink - "
The words jumped out of his mouth: "I'm not with Saxton anymore."
Chapter Eighty-two
Qhuinn wrenched his head around a second time. Surely he couldn't have heard that.... "What...?"
"I broke up with him, like, two weeks ago."
Qhuinn felt his lids blink a number of times. "Why...wait, I don't understand."
"It wasn't working. It hadn't been working for a long time. When he came back that night after having been with someone else? We weren't together, so he didn't cheat on me."
For some insane reason, all Qhuinn could think of was Mike Myers saying, Ex-squeeze me? Baking powder?
"But I thought...wait, you two looked really happy. It used to kill me every night to...yeah."
Blay winced. "I'm sorry I lied."
"Shiiiiiiit. I nearly killed him."
"Well, arguably you were being gallant. He knew that."
Qhuinn frowned and shook his head. "I had no idea you two weren't...well, I already said that."
"Qhuinn, I have to ask you something."
"G'head." Assuming he could focus at all.
"When you and I were together...that night...and then you said you had never...you know..."
Qhuinn waited for the guy to continue. When he didn't, he had no idea what Blay was alluding -
Oh, that.
Qhuinn couldn't believe it, but he felt his cheeks redden and warm. "Yeah, that night."
"Well, had you never..."
Considering everything he'd just thrown out there, that little ditty seemed like a minor detail. Besides, the truth was the truth. "You are the first and only male I've ever been with like that."
Silence from the other guy. And then, "Oh, my God, I'm so sorry I - "
Qhuinn jumped in, cutting off the unnecessary apology. "I'm not sorry. There is no one I'd rather have had taking my virginity. The first one you always remember."
Congratulations, Saxton, you lucky fucking cocksucker.
Another long silence. And just as Qhuinn was about to check his watch and suggest they take a break from the awkwardness, Blay spoke up.
"Aren't you going to ask me why Saxton and I were never going to work?"
Qhuinn rolled his eyes. "I know it wasn't problems in the bedroom. You're the best lover I've ever been with, and I can't imagine my cousin felt any differently."
Fucking cocksucking son of a bitch Saxton.
As he realized the other guy wasn't saying anything, Qhuinn glanced over. Blay's blue eyes had an odd light in them.
"What." Oh, for God's sake. "Fine. Why wouldn't it ever work out?"
"Because I was, and I remain, utterly and completely and totally...in love with you."
Qhuinn's mouth dropped open. As his ears began to hum, he wondered if he had heard that right. He leaned in closer. "I'm sorry, what did you - "
"Hey, baby," a female voice cut in.
On the right side of him, a woman with enough cleavage to fill a pair of salad bowls pressed into his body. "How would you like a partner in crime - "
"Back off," Blay barked. "He's with me."
Abruptly, Qhuinn's spine straightened: It was amply clear from the cold blue fire spitting out of Blay's eyes that the guy was prepared to tear the throat of that woman wide-open if she didn't disappear quick.
And that was...
Awesome.
"Okay, okay." She put her hands up in submission. "I didn't know that you were together."
"We are," Blay hissed.
As the woman with the formerly bright idea skulked off, Qhuinn turned to Blay, well aware that his shock was showing.
"Are we?" he breathed to his former best friend.
With the club music pounding, and a stadium full of strangers milling around them, with the bartender delivering drinks and the working girls working, with a thousand other lives rolling onward...time stopped for both of them.
Blay reached forward and took Qhuinn's face in his hands, that blue stare warming as it roamed around. "Yes. Yes, we are - "
Qhuinn nearly jumped on the guy, closing the distance between their mouths and kissing the love of his life once, twice...three times - even though he had no fucking idea what was happening, or whether it was real or if his alarm