a yard long slithered up and between them. The sound was a hushing, like the recordings he'd heard of surf against a beach. He switched again. The port, with bulkheads closed and encrusted with huge nautilus spirals that seemed to shift while he watched them.
"Everyone thinks you're a fucking hero," the kid said, and this time, it bit a little. Miller shook his head.
"Nah," he said. "Just a guy who used to be a cop."
Why should going into a firefight, charging into an enemy station filled with people and automatic systems built to kill you, seem less frightening than talking to people who you shipped with for weeks?
And still.
It was third shift, and the bar at the observation platform was set to imitate night. The air was scented with something smoky that wasn't smoke. A piano and bass dueled lazily with each other while a man's voice lamented in Arabic. Dim lights glowed at the bases of the tables, casting soft shadows up across faces and bodies, emphasizing the customers' legs and bellies and breasts. The shipyards beyond the windows were busy as always. If he went close, he could pick out the Rocinante, still recovering from its wounds. Not dead, and being made stronger.
Amos and Naomi were at a table in a corner. No sign of Alex. No sign of Holden. That made it easier. Not easy, but closer. He made his way toward them. Naomi saw him first, and Miller read the discomfort in her expression, covered over as quickly as it appeared. Amos turned to see what she'd been reacting to, and the corners of his mouth and eyes didn't shift into a frown or a smile. Miller scratched his arm even though it didn't itch.
"Hey," he said. "Buy you folks a round?"
The silence lasted a beat longer than it should have, and then Naomi forced a smile.
"Sure. Just one. We've got... that thing. For the captain."
"Oh yeah," Amos said, lying even more awkwardly than Naomi had, making his awareness of the fact part of the message. "The thing. That's important."
Miller sat, lifted a hand for the waiter to see, and, when the man nodded, leaned forward with his elbows on the table. It was the seated version of a fighter's crouch, bent forward with his arms protecting the soft places in his neck and belly. It was the way a man stood when he expected injury.
The waiter came, and then beers all around. Miller paid for them with the OPA's money and took a sip.
"How's the ship?" he asked at last.
"Coming together," Naomi said. "They really banged the hell out of her."
"She'll still fly," Amos said. "She's one tough bitch."
"That's good. When - " Miller said, then tripped on his words and had to start again. "When are you folks shipping out?"
"Whenever the captain says," Amos said with a shrug. "We're airtight now, so could go tomorrow, if he's got someplace he wants to be."
"And if Fred lets us," Naomi said, and then grimaced like she wished she'd kept silent.
"That an issue?" Miller asked. "Is the OPA leaning on Holden?"
"It's just something I was thinking about," Naomi said. "It's nothing. Look, thanks for the drink, Miller. But I really think we'd better be going."
Miller took a long breath and let it out slow.
"Yeah," he said. "Okay."
"You head out," Amos said to Naomi. "I'll catch up."
Naomi shot a confused look at the big man, but Amos only gave back a smile. It could have meant anything.
"Okay," Naomi said. "But don't be long, okay? The thing."
"For the captain," Amos said. "No worries."
Naomi rose and walked away. Her effort not to look back over her shoulder was visible. Miller looked at Amos. The lights gave the mechanic a slightly demonic appearance.
"Naomi's a good person," Amos said. "I like her, you know? Like my kid sister, only smart and I'd do her if she let me. You know?"
"Yeah," Miller said. "I like her too."
"She's not like us," Amos said, and the warmth and humor were gone.
"That's why I like her," Miller said. It was the right thing to say. Amos nodded.
"So here's the thing. As far as the captain goes, you're dipped in shit right now."
The scrim of bubbles where his beer touched the glass glowed white in the dim light. Miller gave the glass a quarter turn, watching them closely.
"Because I killed someone who needed it?" Miller asked. The bitterness in his voice wasn't surprising, but it was deeper than he'd intended. Amos didn't hear it or else didn't