Sandra’s soft voice prods me as she rises from her seat, the sounds accompanying my sobs.
He killed him for me. My heart clenches. I’m a horrible person for loving him for that. That’s truly what I feel. It’s so fucked up.
Her small hands rub soothing circles on my back. “Have you been able to talk to your partner about this?” she asks me in a small voice. ”Lucian?”
I nod my head, wiping under my eyes and reaching for the Kleenex in her hand.
“Do you think you’ll be able to confide in him?” she asks. I don’t know. My heart squeezes with pain. This is so real. It’s so much to take in. I love him. I know I love him, and I can’t bear the thought of him leaving me. The contract is over, but I’m not signing another. I want him. I want a commitment. I need it. I need him.
Chapter 29
Lucian
I gave her a chance to come back to me on her own, and she didn’t. I’m not going to wait. I refuse to.
The thirty days are over, we have no contract. This is just me and her.
I check my phone one last time before grabbing my keys and opening the door. I swing it open and my heart stops as I stare back at Dahlia. Her eyes are red-rimmed and her hair is a mess.
She came back to me. I’m still in the doorway as she looks up at me with uncertainty. I can’t believe she’s here. My heart thuds in my chest as she brushes her hair behind her ears and parts her lips.
“Lucian,” she says and her voice is soft.
“You came back.”
She visibly swallows and takes in a sharp breath. I open the door wider and step to the side. I still can’t believe she’s here. I thought I’d have to drag her back here. I’m hesitant to think anything positive though. She’s obviously not well. And we need to set ground rules. We need to make sure we’re on the same page.
She walks in slowly, her hands gripping the strap of her purse. This is either going to go one of two ways. Either she’s here to end it, or she’s here to stay. And if she’s staying, I’m never letting her go.
Her heels click, the sound reverberating off the walls of the foyer as I close the door.
“I’m struggling, Lucian.” She turns to face me, still tightly gripping the strap.
I know she is, but everything is going to be alright. “Talk to me, treasure; I want to help you.”
She takes in a shaky breath, finally putting her purse down on the table and walking toward me. I open my arms and she walks into my embrace freely. I breathe easy, feeling her pressed against me. Knowing she wants to be held by me. I kiss her hair as she nuzzles her cheek against my chest.
“I’m sorry I made you feel like you had to leave,” I apologize. “What I did was something that needed to be done. It wasn’t meant to hurt you or to make you afraid of me.”
She nods her head in my chest, but she’s quiet. I just need her to open up. I need to know what she’s thinking.
“I don’t want you to leave again. I need you to stay, treasure.”
“I don’t want to leave, I want you,” she whispers into my chest.
“Forgive me.” My voice is pained. If I had to do it all over again, I still would’ve killed him. I know I would have.
“It’s not about forgiveness. I think… I love you, Lucian. And that scares the hell out of me.” Her confession breaks the wall of insecurity between us. I breathe easily, holding her closer to me and rewarding her honesty with a sweet kiss. My lips mold to hers and I pour my passion into the kiss, needing her to feel it. My hands travel along her body, wanting to claim every inch, but she pulls away slightly, breathing heavily with her eyes closed.
I can feel a but coming. I blink the lust-filled haze away and wait for more. Just tell me what you need, treasure. I’ll give you anything.
“I’m not okay right now, and all I want is you, but it’s not the same for you…”
I pull away from her with my brows pinched. “What do you mean it’s not the same for me? You don’t think I want you? I’ve given you everything I can. I don’t want to lose you.”
“It’s just.