and then she looked embarrassed. “I was kind of hoping Trent would text,” she admitted. “I thought we had a connection.”
“Boys are stupid,” I announced.
“Right?” Abby agreed. “I mean, why would he want to miss out on all this?” She waved a hand over her body, and we both giggled.
“Have you ever played never have I ever?” Abby asked.
“Yeah, but never drunk,” I laughed.
“That makes it so much more fun,” she said mischievously.
“I’ll go first,” I told her. “Never have I ever been in love.”
She shrugged and drank. “I fell madly in love with this guy who used to go to our school.”
“Really? What happened?” I asked curiously.
“His parents decided he would be better off in a boarding school in Switzerland,” she explained. “We did the long-distance thing for maybe a month before it was obvious that it just wasn’t going to work.”
“That sucks,” I told her sympathetically.
She sighed. “Yeah.” Her eyes brightened up after a moment of silence. “My turn!” She tapped a finger on her chin thoughtfully. “Never have I ever had a one-night stand.”
I blanched but drank. Abby’s eyes almost burst out of her head. “No way! I never in a million years would have guessed that.”
“It was the first and only time I’d ever had sex,” I admitted. “I knew it was a huge mistake the moment we were alone in his room together.”
I looked down at the bed as the bad memories flashed through my mind.
“But it just happened so fast, and I thought it was too late for me to back out.” I looked up at Abby. “I wish I were one of those girls that were born a badass, but I had to work hard to get this tough,” I smirked at her. “Sometimes I look back at the girl I used to be and just want to shake some sense into her, you know?”
“I know,” Abby said softly. “But what about your boyfriend?”
I frowned in confusion. I’m sure I mentioned Ryan a couple of times when we were just talking about random stuff, but Abby never asked about him. I certainly never told her that he was my boyfriend.
“You mean Ryan?”
Abby nodded. “Yeah, you haven’t said much about him, and I’ve been kind of afraid to ask.” She hesitated. “I was worried you guys broke up when you moved here, and I wasn’t sure you were ready to talk about it.”
I giggled. “Yeah, I was pretty devastated to leave Ryan. But we’ve never dated.”
“Really?” she asked in disbelief.
“Really. Ryan has a huge crush on one of the guys that go to our school.”
“Ohhhh,” she said. “That makes so much sense. I wondered why his parents would be okay with you living in his room.”
My frown came back. I never talked to Abby about sharing a room with Ryan, I just said that I moved into his parent’s apartment. But it was getting more and more difficult to stay focused, and my thoughts were floating away only seconds after I had them.
Abby’s phone buzzed, and she quickly picked it up to read a text.
“Trent?” I asked.
She shook her head. “Nope.” She held her phone between us, but with the screen turned away from me so that I couldn’t see the message.
“If you need a minute, I don’t mind,” I told her with a sloppy smile.
“Nah,” she told me with a shake of her head. “Let’s keep playing. Your turn.”
“Never have I ever given a blow job,” I said with a grin.
Abby giggled and drank. “Sex but not oral?” Abby teased me.
I grimaced. “Yeah, I wasn’t kidding when I said it all happened too fast. I really wasn’t ready for that.”
“You need a redo,” Abby told me confidently. “If you could pick anyone, who would it be?”
“Honestly?” I let out a breath. “I want my next time to be with someone that I feel an undeniable connection with. Someone who I can trust. Someone who cares about me.”
Abby looked disappointed. “So, neither Kingston nor Maverik?”
I wrinkled my nose at her. “No way,” I said defensively. “They both hate me and would never respect me or treat me the way I’d want.”
“Okay, but you have to admit they’re hot, right?”
I shrugged. “Physically, yeah. They’re both good looking guys.”
A shiver ran down my spine at the thought of Maverik’s eyes on me, but I ignored that stray thought that had absolutely no place in my brain. I flashed back to our encounter earlier today. It was undeniable that my body had responded to him, but he