Never in life."
Jake flushed with pleasure.
"I keep forgetting how strong the touch has become in you. You'd have made a fine Breaker, no doubt."
This wasn't an answer, but Jake didn't bother saying so.
And the idea of being a Breaker made him repress a shiver.
"Don't you know?" Roland asked. "If thee knows I'm what Eddie calls royally pissed, don't you know why?"
"I could look, but it wouldn't be polite." But it was a lot more than that. Jake vaguely remembered a Bible story about Noah getting loaded on the ark, while he and his sons were waiting out the flood. One of the sons had come upon his old man lying drunk on his bunk, and had laughed at him. God had cursed him for it. To peek into Roland's thoughts wouldn't be the same as looking-and laughing-while he was drunk, but it was close.
"Thee's a fine boy," Roland said. "Fine and good, aye." And although the gunslinger spoke almost absently, Jake could have died happily enough at that moment. From somewhere beyond and above them came that resonant CLICK! sound, and all at once the special-effects sunbeam speared down on the Devar-
Toi. A moment later, faintly, they heard the sound of music:
"Heyjude," arranged for elevator and supermarket. Time to rise and shine down below. Another day of Breaking had just begun.
Although, Jake supposed, down there the Breaking never really stopped.
"Let's have a game, you and I," Roland proposed. 'You try to get into my head and see who I'm angry at. I'll try to keep you out."
Jake shifted position slightly. "That doesn't sound like a fun game to me, Roland."
"Nevertheless, I'd play against you."
"All right, if you want to."
Jake closed his eyes and called up an image of Roland's tired, stubbled face. His brilliant blue eyes. He made a door between and slightly above those eyes-a litde one, with a brass knob-and tried to open it. For a moment the knob turned. Then it stopped. Jake applied more pressure. The knob began to turn again, then stopped once again. Jake opened his eyes and saw that fine beads of sweat had broken on Roland's brow.
"This is stupid. I'm making your headache worse," he said.
"Never mind. Do your best."
My worst, Jake thought. But if they had to play this game, he wouldn't draw it out. He closed his eyes again and once again saw the little door between Roland's tangled brows. This time he applied more force, piling it on quickly. It felt a little like arm-wrestling. After a moment the knob turned and the door opened. Roland grunted, then uttered a painful laugh. "That's enough for me," he said. "By the gods, thee's strong!"
Jake paid no attention to that. He opened his eyes. "The writer? King? Why are you mad at him?"
Roland sighed and cast away the smoldering butt of his cigarette; Jake had already finished with his. "Because we have two jobs to do where we should have only one. Having to do the second one is sai King's fault. He knew what he was supposed to do, and I think that on some level he knew that doing it would keep him safe. But he was afraid. He was tired." Roland's upper lip curled. "Now his irons are in the fire, and we have to pull them out. It's going to cost us, and probably a-dearly."
"You're angry at him because he's afraid? But..." Jake frowned. "But why wouldn't he be afraid? He's only a writer. A tale-spinner, not a gunslinger."
"I know that," Roland said, "but I don't think it was fear that stopped him, Jake, or not jurffear. He's lazy, as well. I felt it when I met him, and I'm sure that Eddie did, too. He looked at the job he was made to do and it daunted him and he said to himself,
"All right, I'll find an easier job, one that's more to my liking and more to my abilities. And if there's trouble, they'll take care of me. They'll have to take care of me.' And so we do."
"You didn't like him."
"No," Roland agreed, "I didn't. Not a bit. Nor trusted him.
I've met tale-spinners before, Jake, and they're all cut more or less from the same cloth. They tell tales because they're afraid of life."
"Do you say so?" Jake thought it was a dismal idea. He also thought it had the ring of truth.
"I do. But..." He shrugged. It is what it is, that shrug said.
Ka-shume, Jake thought. If their ka-tet broke, and it was