no lubrication, it makes things difficult.
You mean it makes them hard.
Could Colby see me? Could he hear me?
I hoped not.
Maybe I could just bang one out. Quietly. Slowly.
While imagining him here in the tub with you, imagining him inside you…
Oh god. This wasn’t going to take long at all, not with thoughts like that in my head. Just imagining his cock all slicked up and ready to penetrate me, I thought I’d do anything, anything at all for a chance at that, I didn’t even care about the job, the safety it offered, the pay I needed, I just wanted him to fuck me, and—
I heard the splashing behind me and my hand flew away from my cock. Like I was getting caught shoplifting or something, the instinct was to suddenly look as law-abiding as possible.
Glancing back…my eyes widened.
He was staring at me. He was lifting himself from the tub, water sluicing off his body, off every inch of muscle, and when he rose high enough, he wasn’t even hiding himself. There was nothing whatsoever keeping me from seeing him…and he didn’t care. He stepped out of the tub, dripping wet, his cock heavy and hard.
“This is fucking ridiculous,” he said.
“What…what is…?” I could barely breathe.
“I thought I could relax, but knowing you were right there… Damn it, Finn. I know we have an agreement.”
“Rules,” I whisper, as he approaches my tub.
His skin is red from the bath.
Steam billows off of him.
He’s like some fire-god rising from the lava, coming to set me aflame.
My cock is rising above the water as though in greeting. I’m not even touching it at this point, but it doesn’t matter. I’m leaking precum and one false move and it wouldn’t be precum anymore, it’d be the real thing.
“I don’t want to take advantage of you,” he says. “You’re in a damned vulnerable position.”
This bath has me in a vulnerable position, bare in front of him. I settle back, so he can see more of me.
He’s not disgusted by my scar. He’s not even looking at it.
It’s such a strange feeling, this need.
“I’m used to taking whatever I want,” he says.
“So take me,” I whisper.
“The rules—”
“You’re the one who makes the rules,” I say, and I can’t imagine saying that to anyone else in the world.
What was it Polly had said? You’ve got two speeds…either don’t trust anyone…or take big dumb risks with them.
Well. Here I was, ready to take a risk.
Because I was helpless before Colby Raines. Powerless to stop him. He could have done anything to me, and I would not have been able to utter one complaint.
18
Colby
Sometimes you know something is wrong, and it propels you forward, that wrongness.
It’s how guys in business get into trouble. They see a deal they know they shouldn’t take. Everything in their conscience is saying no, drop it, get back within the guardrails, but that hunger for more is insatiable.
I should feel guilty, standing there in the cooling air, my skin turning to gooseflesh, my cock hanging over that tub, as I stare at Finn.
Should feel like I was crossing all the wrong boundaries, no better than those other men from the club, the men who thought it was their right to possess whomever they chose.
Hell. Maybe I am no better.
Because when I look down at him, I see someone vulnerable, someone as easy to hurt as a flower petal, someone who could be bruised and crushed and tossed away. He has that air about him, someone who is used to being thrown away, and that’s the risk that catches my breath, that sticks in my throat, knowing I could destroy him.
It would be so easy to do.
My eyes are drawn to his cock-slit, which is dripping for me.
I know it’s for me. I know he’s hard for me, that he wants me, and that’s the wildest part of this, knowing that if I did destroy him, it would be with his own consent.
Sometimes we aren’t happy until we burn ourselves into ashes.
I step into his tub.
There’s room. More than enough. He doesn’t argue, doesn’t fight, just sits there with his eyes wide as I slip into the water with him, on the opposite end of this tub.
I put my feet to either side of his hips.
We’re touching.
The whole length of our legs is touching.
If I wanted to, I could nudge his cock with my toe.
My mind is reeling. Just being this close to him…
The need to hurt battles with the need to protect.
Fuck it. Fuck