on the road. It wasn't long, however, before he began playing freeway games again. On. his way up to Logan, he played Follow, and a woman in a Honda Civic smashed headon into a pickup truck as she foolishly tried to pass a semi-truck at the crest of a hill in Sardine Canyon. The police reports didn't mention (and no one knew) that she was trying to get away from a Datsun 26OZ that had relentlessly followed her for eighty miles. Her name was Donna Weeks, and she had two children and a husband who had been expecting her back in Logan that evening. They couldn't get all her body out of the car.
On a hop over to Denver, a seventeen-year-old skier went out of control on a snowy road, her VW smashing into a mountain, bouncing off, and tumbling down a cliff. One of the skis on the back of her bug, incredibly enough, was unbroken. The other was splintered into kindling. Her head went through the windshield. Her body didn't.
The roads between Cameron trading post and Page, Arizona, were the worst in the world. It surprised no one when an eighteen-year-old blond model from Phoenix was killed when she smashed into the back of a van parked beside the road. She had been going more than a hundred nifles an hour, which her friends said did not surprise them, she had always sped, especially when driving at night. A child in the van was killed in his sleep, and the family was hospitalized. There was no mention of a Datsun with Utah plates.
And Stanley began to remember more often. There wasn't room in the secret places of his mind to hold all of this. He clipped their faces out of the paper. He dreamed of them at night. In his dreams they always threatened hun, always deserved the end they got. Every dream ended with orgasm. But never as strong a convulsion as the ecstacy when the collision came on the highway.
Check. And mate.
Aim, and fire.
Eighteen, seven, twenty-three, hike.
Games, all games, and the moment of truth.
"I'm sick." He sucked the end of his Bic four-color pen. "I need help."
The phone rang.
"Stan? It's Liz."
Hi, Liz.
"Stan, aren't you going to answer me?" Go to hell, Liz.
"Stan, what kind of game is this? You don't call for nine months, and now you
just sit there while I'm trying to talk to you?"
Come to bed, Liz.
"That is you, isn't it?"
"Yeah, it's me."
"Well, why didn't you answer me? Stan, you scared me. That really scared me."
"I'm sorry."
"Stan, what happened? Why haven't you called?"
"I needed you too much." Melodramatic, melodramatic. But true.
"Stan, I know. I was being a bitch."
"No, no, not really. I was being too demanding."
"Stan, I miss you. I want to be with you."
"I miss you, too, Liz. I've really needed you these last few months."
She droned on as Stanley sang silently, "Oh, bury me not on the lone prairie,
where the coyotes howl--"
"Tonight? My apartment?"
"You mean you'll let me past the sacred chain lock?"
"Stanley. Don't be mean. I miss you."
"I'll be there."
"I love you."
"Me, too."
After this many months, Stanley was not sure, not sure at all. But Liz was a
straw to grasp at. "I drown," Stanley said. "I die. Morior. Moriar. Mortuus sum." Back when he had been dating Liz, back when they had been together, Stanley hadn't played these freeway games. Stanley hadn't watched these women die. Stanley hadn't had to hide from himself in his sleep. "Caedo. Caedam. Cecidi."
Wrong, wrong. He had been dating Liz the first time. He had only stopped after
- after. Liz had nothing to do with it. Nothing would help. "Despero. Desperabo. Desperavi." And because it was the last thing he wanted to do, he got up, got dressed, went out to his car, and drove out onto the freeway. He got behind a woman in a red Audi. And he followed her.
She was young, but she was a good driver. He tailed her from Sixth South to the place where the freeway forks, I-15 continuing south, I-80 veering east. She stayed in the right-hand lane until the last moment, then swerved across two lanes of traffic and got onto I-80. Stanley did not think of letting her go. He, too, cut across traffic. A bus honked loudly; there was a screeching of brakes; Stanley's Z was on two wheels and he lost control; a lightpost loomed, then passed.
And Stanley was on I-80, following a few hundred yards behind the Audi. He quickly closed the gap. This