the doorway.
"Don't come in, Rhiannon," Alice said.
Rhiannon came in. "Daddy, it's all right."
"What she means," Alice said, "is that we've checked her and she isn't pregnant. No little monster is going to be born."
Rhiannon didn't look at her mother, just gazed with wide eyes at her father. "You didn't need to-- hurt yourself, Daddy. I forgive you. People lose control sometimes. And it was as much my fault as yours, it really was, you don't need to feel bad, Father."
It was too much for Howard. He cried out, shouted his confession, how he had manipulated her all his life, how he was an utterly selfish and rotten parent, and when it was over Rhiannon came to her father and laid her head on his chest and said, softly, "Father, it's all right. We are who we are. We've done what we've done. But it's all right now. I forgive you."
When Rhiannon left, Alice said, "You don't deserve her."
I know.
"I was going to sleep on the couch, but that would be stupid. Wouldn't it, Howard?"
I deserve to be left alone, like a leper.
"You misunderstand, Howard. I need to stay here to make sure you don't do anything else. To yourself or to anyone."
Yes. Yes, please. I can't be trusted.
"Don't wallow in it, Howard. Don't enjoy it. Don't make yourself even more disgusting than you were before."
All right.
They were drifting off to sleep when Alice said, "Oh, when the doctor called he wondered if I knew what had caused those sores all over your arms and chest."
But Howard was asleep, and didn't hear her. Asleep with no dreams at all, the sleep of peace, the sleep of having been forgiven, of being clean. It hadn't taken that much, after all. Now that it was over, it was easy. He felt as if a great weight had been taken from him.
He felt as if something heavy was lying on his legs. He awoke, sweating even though the room was not hot. He heard breathing. And it was not Alice's low- pitched, slow breath, it was quick and high and hard, as if the breather had been exerting himself.
Itself.
Themselves.
One of them lay across his legs, the flippers plucking at the blanket. The other
two lay on either side, their eyes wide and intent, creeping slowly toward where his face emerged from the sheets.
Howard was puzzled. "I thought you'd be gone," he said to the children. "You're supposed to be gone now." Alice stirred at the sound of his voice, mumbled in her sleep.
He saw more of them sitting in the gloomy corners of the room, another writhing slowly along the top of the dresser, another inching up the wall toward the ceiling.
"I don't need you anymore," he said, his voice oddly high-pitched.
Alice started breathing irregularly, mumbling, "What? What?"
And Howard said nothing more, just lay there in the sheets, watching the creatures carefully but not daring to make a sound for fear Alice would wake up. He was terribly afraid she would wake up and not see the creatures, which would prove, once and for all, that he had lost his mind.
He was even more afraid, however, that when she awoke she would see them. That was the one unbearable thought, yet he thought it continuously as they relentlessly approached with nothing at all in their eyes, not even hate, not even anger, not even contempt. We are with you, they seemed to be saying, we will be with you from now on. We will be with you, Howard, forever.
And Alice rolled over and opened her eyes.
Eye for Eye
*Just talk, Mick. Tell us everything. We'll listen.*
Well to start with I know I was doing terrible things. If you're a halfway decent person, you don't go looking to kill people. Even if you can do it without touching them. Even if you can do it so as nobody even guesses they was murdered, you still got to try not to do it.
*Who taught you that?*
Nobody. I mean it wasn't in the books in the Baptist Sunday School-- they spent all their time telling us not to lie or break the sabbath or drink liquor. Never did mention killing. Near as I can figure, the Lord thought killing was pretty smart sometimes, like when Samson done it with a donkey's jaw. A thousand guys dead, but that was okay cause they was Philistines. And lighting foxes' tails on fire. Samson was a sicko, but he still got his pages in the Bible.
I figure Jesus was about the only