trail. I see no reason for your line to be bugged, so this is a fine method of arranging a man’s imminent death.”
“Chloe, honestly,” Dani managed, “Zaf hasn’t done—”
“Little sisters should be seen and not heard,” Chloe said grimly, before her concentration went back to the phone. “I’m not implying anything, darling, I’m just saying that you’re a very resourceful man who might possibly know other resourceful men, especially since artists are known to have an excess of feeling. Yes. Yes. Well, of course I don’t want you to go to prison; I wasn’t suggesting you get caught. No. I’ll ask her. Danika, would you like orange chocolate or dark?”
“Both,” Danika said glumly.
“Same for me,” Eve piped up.
“And me.” That was Sorcha.
“We’ll all have both. Oh, stop moaning, our teeth have survived this long. Good-bye. I love you, too.”
Dani’s stomach lurched, a stab of pain flaring behind her ribs. I love you, Zafir had said. I love you as you are. It had sounded so wonderful, coming from that beautiful mouth in that slow, familiar voice, and she’d wanted it so badly she’d felt dizzy. But she couldn’t—she just couldn’t—
Why would he say that? Why would he say that to her, and make everything so much more impossible? She was only just coming to grips with the fact that they could be together properly, that she might not fuck that up, and he expected her to believe he’d somehow fallen head over heels within five minutes?
Yes. He expected you to believe him, because he never lies. And because being a romantic doesn’t make him a fool.
But he must’ve been mistaken. He must have been, because Dani hadn’t even tried to be lovable. Except . . .
Except he’d sort of told her that she didn’t need to try. Which, now she could breathe again, and think without the weight of his entire life’s hopes and dreams crushing her, did sound quite reasonable and very Zafir-like.
Oh dear. Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear.
The tears started again.
“Good Lord,” Chloe said, putting the phone down. “You really must tell us what’s happened, Danika, or I might be moved to call Gigi.”
“I think—I think Zaf loves me,” Dani wailed.
There was a moment of silence before Sorcha piped up cautiously, “Oh . . . no?”
“But I didn’t—he shouldn’t,” Dani sobbed. “Or he couldn’t! Except he does really seem to like me, and he’s inhumanly wonderful, so perhaps he could, and if he did, I’ve just ruined everything.”
“Sorry, don’t let me throw you,” Eve said, “I’d just like to check before we go any further. Are you telling me that your fake boyfriend, who you have, obviously, been sleeping with—”
“Bravo, by the way,” Chloe interjected.
“—told you he loved you, and you decided, for some reason, that he’d . . . made it up?”
“Yes,” Dani managed in a very small voice.
“And what,” Eve asked delicately, “did you say to him in return?”
“I said . . . I said we’d made a mistake.”
“Oh sweet fucking Christ,” Sorcha muttered. “Baby Jesus in a manger, give me strength. Danika Brown, if I strangle you—”
“Don’t be angry with me,” Dani snapped. “It wasn’t—I wasn’t ready for this! All I asked for was a nice, goddess-mandated fuck buddy, and the signs led me to believe that I’d gotten one.”
“Oh, for shite’s sake, Dani!” Sorcha cried. “You know that’s not how signs and invocations work. You’re not supposed to use random happenings as an excuse to avoid dealing with what you really want. You’re supposed to pay attention to what resonates. You’re supposed to take a fucking hint!”
“Is that honestly your best solution?” Dani demanded. “Focusing on what I want? Because that would involve letting myself be lost and confused and in love with him, which is a lot to fucking deal with, Sorcha!” She hadn’t had a chance to work through the pros and cons, or check it for safety from every angle. For heaven’s sake, she hadn’t even written it down, and nothing even counted until you wrote it down, which meant that Dani was currently engaged in the highly dangerous practice of loving Zaf without a permit, so no wonder she’d fucked it up, and—
“Oh my God,” she gasped. Her thoughts, her breaths, her heart, all lurched to a stop.
Loving him. Shit.
Shit, shit, shit.
She loved him.
Dani turned the idea left and right, examined it cautiously as if a vicious alien might burst out from its middle, and finally judged it to be irrefutably true, if not totally safe. She loved Zaf.