this would have to satisfy them for now. She wouldn’t try to pretend that this would be the only time.
Levi gripped her ass and pulled her forward until she was grinding on him, up and down...over and over again. She clung to his shoulders, her nails digging in as the arousal mounted and her breath became labored.
Levi’s grip tightened on her ass and he quickened her movements, his head buried into her neck. He continued to kiss and suck and lick, his actions becoming more frantic, more desperate as she rode him harder.
Her mouth was dry but sweat covered her entire body as her breasts rubbed against his rock-solid chest and her thighs brushed against his.
“Damn, I want to be inside you,” he said.
“I want you inside me,” she whispered. She wanted to be as close to him as possible. Feel him fill her. All of him. All of her. This was hardly enough.
He pushed hard against her as she ground even faster, feeling her orgasm rise to nearly a breaking point. “Levi...” she said, holding on to him tighter like a life preserver when she thought she might float away...be lost...once again. He was the grounding rock she needed. The one he always was for her, and right now, she wouldn’t let go.
He groaned his own release the same time she felt the first ripples of orgasm erupt inside of her. Her body trembled and Levi’s grip on her ass tightened even more as he held her still, as his head fell forward onto her shoulder and he moaned his final release.
She fought for a breath as she enjoyed the last sensations of pleasure flowing through her. Her grip on him relaxed, but she didn’t move away or release him completely. A tornado of emotions raged through her and she waited for the reality of what they’d just done to set in, for the high to dissipate...but all she felt was a euphoria that erased all other sensations.
“Gotta say, I didn’t think you’d call my bluff like that,” Levi said, gently, pulling back slightly to look at her. He brushed her hair away from her face and studied her for any sign of regret or guilt.
He wouldn’t find any...at least not yet.
* * *
LEVI WAS COMING down from the high and didn’t know what to do with himself. He’d just had sex with his best friend. No matter how many times he repeated it to himself, it felt surreal, like he’d imagined it, like it had only happened in one of his fantasies. He struggled to believe it had actually happened.
They hadn’t said much afterward, both not really knowing what to say. And now back inside the cabin, the tight quarters with Leslie had him inventing make-work projects to stay in his office and away from her.
He had no regrets, but the guilt was hitting him a lot harder than he’d told himself it would. No amount of reasoning or excuses was easing the heaviness in his chest during a time when he wanted to be celebrating. He’d been with the woman he’d always loved. She’d opened herself up to him. Her body at least. Just a little... He should be the happiest man on earth.
But if he was feeling this conflicted, she had to be as well.
Which was a double kick to the groin.
Maybe he shouldn’t have goaded her the way he had. Maybe he should never have told her the truth about how he felt. Maybe he shouldn’t have allowed things to go this far...
He ran a hand through his hair in frustration.
Disappointment in himself and his actions mixed with annoyance. Why the hell did he always have to sacrifice what he wanted? Why did he always have to be the good guy? The honorable guy who was so fucking heartbroken and miserable?
Life had determined this situation they found themselves in. Fate had intervened in a cruel way to allow him this opportunity to be with her. But the fact of the matter was that it sucked. Getting the girl of his dreams by default and at such a high cost was not the way he wanted to finally have love, be accepted, get his own chance at happiness.
He sighed as he glanced through the open blinds of his office to the living room, where Leslie was using his laptop. Damn, she was so beautiful, so amazing...and despite the guilt, his body reacted to her again already. Remembering her kiss, her urgency, the way her hands had