“Sloane already thinks I’m leaving next week. There’s no reason to create a situation where she casts you as the bad guy. Her transformation has been remarkable, don’t you think?”
Tiny prickles of fear race up my arms. What’s he talking about?
“Yes. She’s come a long way,” Dr. Warren muses. “Fine. You can stay the week, finish this stage of the therapy, but I’m warning you: hands off. They could bring a lawsuit against The Program.”
“You know as well as I do that physical contact can do wonders for recovery. For trust building.”
“Hands off,” Dr. Warren repeats with a finality in her tone. She exhales. “Michael, are you certain she can complete treatment? There are other options—”
“Sloane will return on time,” Realm says. “I just need a little more space to make sure the memories are cleared out. She’s very fragile right now.”
I stand there completely stunned as I try to wrap my mind around what I’ve just heard. Is Realm even a patient? I . . . I don’t know what to think anymore. Did he set me up?
“Fine,” Dr. Warren responds. “Then I guess we’re done here.”
“Almost,” Realm says in a quiet voice.
I’m still next to the door when it opens suddenly. I push back against the wall, my heart pounding, as Realm stalks out. He starts to leave and then pauses. I hold my breath.
“Don’t get caught standing there,” he murmurs, not turning to me. “Or they’ll send you away for another six weeks. Maybe more.” He lowers his head and then walks down the hallway.
I want to run after him and ask him what’s going on—make him explain. But the realization is just hitting me. Realm is working with them. He’s my friend, my only friend, but it’s not real. He’s part of The Program.
Oh, God. Realm is part of The Program! All this time I’ve confided in him, he’s been passing the information to Dr. Warren—things I don’t discuss in therapy. My secrets.
Realm. My lip quivers at the same time my hand clenches in a fist. He’s . . . he’s been messing with my mind. He’s no better than any of them.
• • •
Realm doesn’t sit with me at dinner, and I don’t raise my head when he passes me. A few people ask if we’re fighting, but I ignore them, picking at the chicken on my tray. Realm is a plant, a fake. I could out him in front of everyone here, and this entire place would explode. But what happens after? Will they send us all through The Program again? Are Derek and Shep a part of it?
Anger is fighting its way past the meds in my system. I look over to where Realm is sitting with his friends, and I stand, my hands shaking. I start over, and Realm looks at me just before I reach him and jumps up.
“Hey, sweetness,” he says, and I can see how forced his smile is as he grabs my arm hard, turning me in the other direction.
“Don’t touch me,” I hiss, yanking away from him.
Realm fixes me with a warning glare and then turns back to his table. “Looks like I’ve moved from the doghouse to the porta-potty,” he says, making them laugh. “I’ll catch up with you guys later.” They chuckle, but I’m backing toward the door, tears gathering in my eyes. When he notices, Realm grabs me quickly into a hug, pushing my cheek against his shirt as I struggle to pull away.
“Don’t let them see you cry,” he says quietly. “I’ll tell you whatever you want to know, but if they think you’re breaking down, they’ll keep you. I know you want to go home, Sloane.”
I put my hand on his forearm, digging my nails in as hard as I can. He flinches, but he doesn’t pull away. I stop, knowing that I’m hurting him, and thinking that even now . . . I don’t want to. What I want is for him to tell me that I’m wrong. That he’s real and hasn’t betrayed me. I sniffle and wipe my tears on his shirt before straightening up.
“My man is smooth,” Derek says with a laugh from behind us.
Realm looks down at me, his expression miserable. His dark eyes are so sorry, but his jaw is tight, and I don’t know if I can believe any of the emotions he shows me. I’m suddenly struck with the idea that I don’t know what’s true anymore. Maybe I’ve finally snapped.
Realm takes my hand