positioned himself behind me.
With his hands situated on my hips, he pressed his tip to my opening and blanketed himself over me. As he did so, his hot breath caressed my skin, leaving a collection of goosebumps in its wake. Then he bit onto my ear as he started to push his way into me. The feeling of him filling me, closing around me, grumbling through his bite into my ear—it created a euphoria I couldn’t control. My arms clawed into the carpet, and without much work on Nathan’s behalf, another powerful orgasm went rocketing through me again.
“Fuck, Nikki,” Nathan grumbled. “If you keep doing that, I’m not gonna make it.”
“It’s your fault.”
I drove myself back into Nathan’s thrust, and he responded by wrapping his arm around my stomach and pulling us both up to our knees. His lips clamped down on the crook of my neck and drove into me. I let out a loud scream, and Nathan pushed into me again and stuttered, and I could tell he was releasing inside me.
It was a good thing that I made the decision to start birth control once he and I started hooking up more frequently. It started to drip out of me, and I moaned at the feeling of it, collapsing forward onto the floor in front of me.
He gently rubbed the skin of my ass. “Sorry. I couldn’t get out in time.”
“That’s okay. We should be good,” I responded, still mentally planning on going to get some emergency contraceptive just in case after I left.
Nathan pulled himself out of me, and after cleaning ourselves, we decided to go and sit outside in the hot tub. I curled myself against Nathan and set my head on his shoulder. After not talking to him for a couple of weeks, it felt good to be in his arms again.
“So…” He chuckled. “I will probably kick myself for asking this question, but where are we? We’ve kind of been doing this for a while, and there’s nothing wrong with this, but I want more. I don’t want to apply pressure if we’re not ready, though.”
It wasn’t as if people didn’t know that Nathan and I were a thing. We kissed and had sex from time to time. We didn’t really go out on dates or anything like that, but we saw each other at school every day.
But school was ending soon.
Apart from Avery, no one had really mentioned college, and I hadn’t thought much about it because the idea of leaving Nathan behind scared me. He’d be staying back to run his dad’s company, but I didn’t want to give myself that level of permanence by stating that I’d be staying with him. He’d mentioned having me head an expansion of his business into my family’s business, but I needed to figure my relationship with Nathan out first because I couldn’t go work with him if we weren’t going to be together.
“I don’t know,” I answered. “It’s not even about pressure. I just really and truly don’t know.” I turned my head to look at him. “Is it okay if I take a little bit longer to figure it out?”
He kissed my forehead. “You can take all the time you need. I’m not going anywhere, Nikki. You’re my soulmate.”
That statement and its resonance sent a chill through my body, one that emanated even in spite of the hot water around us.
“Thank you,” I said. “I promise to figure it out soon.”
21
Nikita
Despite the fact that Nathan ended our last interaction on somewhat uncertain terms, I felt better about where we were than I had in days past. Maybe it was because of that, maybe it was because we finally tracked down Brayden, or maybe it was because school was finally coming to a close, but I felt anxious in a good way. I still had more questions than answers about the men that Jaxon and I were following, what had happened to Brayden, and how to sort things out with Cherri, but I was getting an unearned sense of ease. I wasn’t sure where it was coming from. Maybe it was just a sense of confidence that came from losing so much that the only direction to go was up, but I was hoping to ride it out, at least for a day.
“You seem to be in a better mood,” Jaxon said as he sat down at the lunch table. Colette was at his side, and she sat down next to him. I