the volumes of Jane Austen on the bookshelves too. And the empty tube of Clinique Sparkle Skin in her bedroom drawer … If he had looked in the drawer, that is.
She took a sip of wine. A cold hand had touched her, somewhere inside, and she imagined Hugh prowling around the flat while she was at work. She did not like the thought of his looking into things; he could examine things on the walls and on the shelves but he should not poke about in drawers.
She tried to sound light-hearted. “You seem to know a lot about me,” she said, giving a short, nervous laugh. “But what do I know about you?”
He looked at her over the top of his wine glass, his expression one of bemusement. “You’d have to tell me that yourself.”
She thought for a moment. What did she know about him? That he was called Hugh. That he had been in a relationship but was out of it now. That he …
“I really don’t know much about you, Hugh,” she confessed. “I suppose you told me a little. But it wasn’t very much.”
As she waited for his response, she thought how foolish she would look if he did something terrible. People would say, “She picked him up in Rye and brought him home, just like that.” And others would shake their heads and say, “Well, what did she expect?”
Hugh put down his wine glass. “Would you like me to tell you?”
“Yes. We should know a bit about each other, don’t you think? I mean, rather more than what our favourite colours are and so on. About who we are. About where we come from. About what we do. That sort of thing.”
It was as if her answer had disappointed him. “All right,” he said. “But it’s a pity, isn’t it, that we can’t just be … well, just ourselves to each other? Not the social self, the self that other people have created for us, but the real inner soul, stripped of all the trappings of social identity. I think that’s a pity.”
“I know what you mean,” she said. “But I’d still like to know.”
Hugh reached for the bottle of Chablis and topped up her glass. “You know the Hugh part of my name,” he began. “The second part is Macpherson.”
“You’re Scottish?”
“Yes, I’m Scottish. And don’t say, ‘But you don’t sound Scottish.’ I really hate that. Not everyone in Scotland sounds like Rob Roy.”
She defended herself. “I wasn’t going to say that. I know that there are plenty of …” She was about to say posh people in Scotland, but she stopped herself in time. “I know that there are plenty of people in Scotland who …”
He saved her. “Who went to school in England, as I did. I was sent off to school at twelve. I went to a boarding school in Norfolk. Not a very well-known one—in fact, hardly anybody’s ever heard of it.”
“Unlike Uppingham.”
He looked surprised. “Yes, unlike Uppingham. How do you know about Uppingham, by the way?”
“Rupert Porter, my partner—my business partner, as one has to say these days—went there. He still talks about it. I think he was a prefect and has never grown out of it. I once gave him a prefect’s badge that I found on a stall on the Portobello Road. I told him that if he was going to dictate to me then he might as well have a prefect’s badge. He didn’t find it funny.”
“Well, the place I was at was distinctly downmarket of that. But it wasn’t too bad, I suppose.”
Barbara had never been able to understand why anybody would send their child to a boarding school. Why have children in the first place unless you wanted them to spend their childhood with you? She asked Hugh why he was sent away, and he thought for a few moments before answering. “It was complicated,” he said. “We had a farm in Argyll and I would have had to go away to school anyway, or travel for hours every day to get to Fort William. It was a very remote place. And my mother, you see, was English and she wanted me to have a bit of both cultures, my father’s and hers—of Scotland and England. So they decided to send me to boarding school in England. The place I went to was quite cheap and that suited them too. We did not have all that much money.”
“And then?”
“And then what?”
“Then what did you do?”
He looked