my case on a ramble. “And I’m clean. So clean. Like, so clean, I might as well shave my head and call myself Mrs. Clean.”
What on earth are you even saying? I silently wonder to myself. And for the love of everything, don’t try to curtsy on his cock.
“I know you are,” he whispers back, pulling me out of my messy, bumbling thoughts. For the briefest of moments, as his eyes search mine, an amused smile consumes his lips, but just as quick as it came, it leaves his mouth and his eyes turn hot and fiery.
He grips my hips and slowly guides my body so that just the tip of him presses inside me. Instantly, a moan shoots out of my throat and my hips quake against him. But his movements somehow manage to stay precise and meticulous.
His eyes blaze.
And then, he pushes himself All. The. Way. In.
He’s pressed to the hilt and filling and stretching me in the most delicious way, and I’m pretty much done for after that. The instant pleasure-filled gratification overwhelms me. More moans push from my lips, and with greedy hands, I grip at his chest as my body’s movements become erratic and unsteady.
Luke takes the lead, steadying my body and gently turning us over so I’m on my back and he’s on top of me, and thank everything, his cock stays inside me the entire time.
He reaches up and caresses my cheek with a tender hand, his eyes exploring the depths of mine. I don’t know what he finds, but I can imagine it revolves around desperation and need for him to move, to slide in and out of me until pleasure makes me burst into a million tiny pieces.
“You are all I can see, Ava,” he whispers and leans forward to press his lips to the corner of my mouth. “Just you.” His lips brush mine. “Always you.” His mouth deepens the kiss, and his tongue begs entrance into my mouth.
I whimper and claw my fingers at his back, kissing him with the kind of deep-rooted need that makes lips and teeth and tongues clash and dance.
I want to kiss him and touch him and feel him.
I want to crawl in-fucking-side him.
I want him on me and in me and just…everywhere.
We stay like that, fierce desire guiding our mouths, while Luke starts to move. Each thrust gets deeper and harder, until his hips take up a fast rhythm that has me moaning against his persistent mouth.
Pleasure builds.
I whimper and moan and dig my nails into the firm skin of his back.
Deep, sexy groans leave Luke’s lips.
“I’m so close,” I whimper against his mouth. “It feels too good. You feel too good.”
My body tightens in anticipation, and Luke doesn’t let up.
He takes me right to the edge, holding me there for what feels like an eternity.
And then, I’m falling, right into my climax, and my heart feels like it wants to crawl out of my body and into his. Luke is right there with me, his back muscles tightening beneath my fingertips and his breaths turning to uneven, raspy pants.
It feels like it takes hours for my mind to clear the orgasm-induced fog.
But when I do, the reality of what we just did isn’t lost on me.
Holy hell. You just had the best sex of your life. With your best friend.
That truth should be staggering.
But it’s not. It’s quite the opposite, actually.
To be in Luke’s arms is love, safety, comfort, and passion personified. Even from the start, he has held the power to bring me back to life, revive whatever I’ve lost, and restore what’s become shattered.
We are born to be loved, to be cherished for who we are, unconditionally, and Luke has never failed to give me all of that and then some, even when I thought of us as just friends.
But I’m starting to realize we were never just friends.
We were always So. Much. More.
And though his words are precious, his laughter and smile always a remedy, it is the feel of his body, his touch, that makes our relationship feel complete. That makes me feel complete. Or perhaps it is all of them combined; perhaps they are more than their sum.
Either way, I don’t think I want to go back to the way we were before.
I don’t think I ever want this to end.
December 26th
Ava
I stare out the window of our rental, taking in the way the snow on the ground makes the world appear brighter than it should for