betray our love, but I will always put your safety first.
This, even more so after all we have been through, because I know with a certainty deep into my bones, that I cannot watch you die again. I cannot lose you, for I would not survive such a loss. I can barely survive the memory of it, one that will forever haunt me. A ghost I need to rid myself of and the only way I know how, is to eradicate our enemies once and for all. To kill the threat and win this war. Which means, my love, going somewhere you cannot follow.
So, you may hate me, you may damn me or curse my name, but Amelia, I promise you with every breath I take, that I will do everything in my power to come back to you. And when I do, I will spend the rest of eternity gaining your trust once more.
But until then, I have no other choice but to entrust your safety back to your father and as much as it pains me, I know that if you remained by my side, I would only be putting you in danger. So, I ask you, Amelia, in fact, to hell with my fucking pride, for I beg of you not to let my painful decision to let you go be in vain. I ask of you to go with my men and let them deliver you to the one man I trust with your life. The one who holds enough power to keep my heart safe, for you take it with you always.
Please, do this for me, and reward my love for you with proof of your own by keeping that love alive long enough for me to claim it once more.
For I have never loved until there was you.
I have never allowed my heart to beat until it beat for you, and I have never taken breath before there was your beauty to steal it.
I love you and will forevermore until the end of days and beyond.
Yours eternally
Lucius.
Ps… I am coming back for you.
As soon as I finished reading his letter it wasn’t surprising that my face was wet, and I had tears appearing faster than I could wipe them away. It also meant that when I was looking down at Lucius’ words, they started to blur as those same tears landed on the proof of his love, showering them with my own.
“Oh, Lucius,” I muttered on a sigh, now gripping the letter to my chest, knowing that despite being angry, I also understood his reasons. After all, I had done the very same when trapped in that nightmare world and was afraid of him seeing what I may become. I had wanted to spare him the pain of failure should I not have been able to contain the darkness and prevent it from consuming me.
Because the truth was, that the things we do for love weren’t always so black and white. It was not as simple as choosing between right and wrong. It was about doing what was in your heart at the time, and that sometimes means acting on your emotions and on your fears. Which was precisely what Lucius had done. He had been terrified of losing me again, and he was now doing what he thought was the only way to prevent that from happening again.
It hurt.
Fuck me, did it hurt!
But when the decision was made out of love, then it certainly took the sting out of that hurt. So, it was at this point that I knew I had to get up and do what Lucius had asked of me. Otherwise, what good was all this heartache, one I knew was affecting us both.
Which meant I needed to trust in his decision and believe he was doing the right thing, despite how much I hated it. Because I wanted to be fighting by his side and see this through together, right to the very end.
But I also knew that Lucius could potentially get hurt or lose the fight if he had me to worry over. Because back in the King’s office when fighting the Wraiths, it had been his concern for me that had kick-started the deadly chain of events. In fact, it had been our concern for each other. He had taken his eyes off the threat and I had reacted without thought when throwing that blade. Now, if we had been working together as a team, then maybe