don't know if you deserved that. Probably not.'
'It has been an eventful night,' the god said. Then sighed. 'Such is convergence. I asked you earlier, will Quick Ben live?'
Quick Ben. Trull nodded. 'I think so. The blood's stopped flowing.'
'I have called Shadowthrone. There will be healing.'
Trull Sengar glanced over to where Panek sat beside his mother – one of his mothers – 'Shadowthrone had best hurry, before those children become orphans once again.'
A scuffling sound from the portal, and Onrack shuffled into view.
'Trull Sengar.'
He nodded, managed a broken smile. 'Onrack. It seems you and I are cursed to continue our pathetic existence for a while longer.'
'I am pleased.'
No-one spoke for a moment, and then the T'lan Imass said, 'Lifestealer is gone. He was taken away, back through the gate.'
Cotillion hissed in frustration. 'The damned Nameless Ones! They never learn, do they?'
Trull was staring at Onrack. 'Taken? He lives? Why – how? Taken?'
But it was the god who answered. 'Icarium – Lifestealer – is their finest weapon, Trull Sengar. The Nameless Ones intend to fling him against your brother, the Emperor of Lether.'
As comprehension reached through the numbness of exhaustion, Trull slowly closed his eyes. Oh no, please ... 'I see. What will happen then, Cotillion?'
'I don't know. No-one does. Not even the Nameless Ones, although in their arrogance they would never admit to it.'
A squeal from Panek drew their attention – and there was Shadowthrone, crouching down over Minala, settling a hand on her forehead.
Trull spat again – the insides of his mouth were lacerated – then grunted and squinted up at Cotillion. 'I will not fight here again,' he said. 'Nor Onrack, nor these children – Cotillion, please—'
The god turned away. 'Of course not, Trull Sengar.'
Trull watched Cotillion walk through the archway, and the Tiste Edur's gaze fell once more on the body of Ahlrada Ahn. As Shadowthrone approached Quick Ben, Trull climbed to his feet and made his way to where his friend was lying. Ahlrada Ahn. I do not understand you – I have never understood you – but I thank you nonetheless. I thank you ...
He stepped to the entranceway, looked out, and saw Cotillion, the Patron of Assassins, the god, sitting on a shelf of stone that had slipped down from one wall, sitting, alone, with his head in his hands.
EPILOGUE
In a journey through the wastes, I found a god kneeling as it pushed its hands into the sand again and again, each time lifting them up to watch the lifeless grains stream down.
Dismounting from my weary horse, I walked to stand before this apparition and its dusty hands and watched for a time the cycles of their motion when at last up it looked, eyes beseeching.
'Where,' asked this god, 'are my children?'
The Lost Believers
Fisher
The bite, then the blessed numbness of smoke in her lungs, slowly released as Scillara moved up to lean on the rail at Cutter's side. 'You look far away,' she said, scanning the endless seas.
He sighed, then nodded.
'Thinking of her, were you? What was her name again?'
'Apsalar.'
She smiled, mostly to herself, drew in more smoke, watched it whirl away from her nostrils and her pursed lips, three streams becoming one. 'Tell me about her.'
Cutter glanced back over a shoulder, and Scillara, to be companionable, did the same. Barathol was at the stem, Chaur seated almost at the huge blacksmith's boots. Iskaral Pust and Mogora were nowhere in sight, likely in the cabin below, arguing over supper's mysterious ingredients. The black mule had vanished days ago, probably over the side although Iskaral simply smiled at their enquiries.
Mappo was at the bow, crouched down, knees drawn up. Rocking, weeping. He had been that way since morning and no-one seemed able to get through to find out what assailed him.
Cutter turned and stared back over the seas. Scillara happily did the same, pulling hard on her pipe.
And the Daru spoke. 'I was remembering back. After the big fête in Darujhistan, there was another one, a smaller one, celebrating the withdrawal of Malazan interests ... for the time being. Anyway, it was in Coil's estate, just before we left the city – gods below, it seems so long ago now ...'
'You'd just met, then.'
'Yes. Well, there was music. And Apsalar ... she danced.' He looked across at her. 'She danced so beautifully, all conversation stopped, everyone watched.' Cutter shook his head. 'I couldn't even draw breath, Scillara ...'
And yours is a love that will not die.
So be it.
'A good memory, Cutter. Hold on to it. Me, I