has given me an immortal soul, but only one that was to last me as long as my body lasted. I do not know if when the last page of my book is closed, that will be the end of me.
Darkness approaches from outside.
I feel no light inside me strong enough to resist it.
"He is coming," I say.
Chapter 13
There is a knock at the door. I call out to come in. He enters; he is alone, dressed in black, a cape, a hat--he makes a stunning figure. He nods and I gesture for him to take the chair across from us. He has not brought his flute. He sits in the chair near the crate of dynamite and smiles at both of us. But there is no joy in the smile, and I think he truly does regret what is about to happen. Outside, behind us through the broken windows, a hint of light enters the black sky. Ray sits silently staring at our visitor. It is up to me to make conversation.
"Are you happy?" I ask.
"I have known happiness at times," Yaksha says. "But it has been a long time."
"But you have what you want," I insist. "I have broken my vow. I have made another evil creature, another thing for you to destroy."
"I feel no compulsions these days, Sita, except to rest."
"I want to rest as well."
He raises an eyebrow. "You said you wanted to live?"
"It is my hope there will be life for me after this life is over. I assume that is your hope as well. I assume that is why you are going to all this trouble to wreck my night."
"You always had a way with words."
"Thank you,"
Yaksha hesitates. "Do you have any last words?"
"A few. May I decide how we die?"
"You want us to die together?"
"Of course," I say.
Yaksha nods. "I prefer it that way." He glances at the crate of dynamite beside him. "You have made us a bomb, I see. I like bombs."
"I know. You can be the one to light it. You see the fuse there, the lighter beside it? Go ahead, old friend, strike the flame. We can burn together." I lean forward. "Maybe we should have burned a long time ago."
Yaksha picks up the lighter. He considers Ray. "How do you feel, young man?"
"Strange," Ray says.
"I would set you free if I could," Yaksha says, "I would leave you both alone. But it has to end, one way or the other."
This is a Yaksha I have never heard before. He never explained himself to anyone.
"Sita has told me your reasons," Ray says.
"Your father is dead," Yaksha says.
"I know."
Yaksha pulls his thumb across the lighter and stares at it. "I never knew my father."
"I saw him once," I say. "Ugly bastard. Are you going to do it or do you want me to do it?"
"Are you so anxious to die?" Yaksha asks.
"I never could wait for the excitement to begin," I say sarcastically.
He nods and moves the flame to the end of the fuse. It begins to fizzle, it begins to shorten--quickly. There are three minutes of time coiled in that combustible string. Yaksha sits back in his chair.
"I had a dream as I walked by the ocean tonight," he says. "Listening to the sound of the waves, it seemed I entered a dimension where the water was singing a song that no one had ever heard before. A song that explained everything in the creation. But the magic of the song was that it could never be recognized for what it was, not by any living soul. If it was, if the truth was brought out into the open and discussed, then the magic would die and the waters would evaporate. And that is what happened in my dream as this realization came to me. I came into the world. I killed all the creatures the waters had given life to, and then one day I woke up and realized I had been listening to a song. Just a sad song."
"Played on a flute?" I ask.
The fuse burns.
There is no reason for me to delay. Yet I do.
His dream moves me.
"Perhaps," Yaksha says softly. "In the dream the ocean vanished from my side. I walked along an endless barren plain of red dust. The ground was a dark red, as if a huge being had bled over it for centuries and then left the sun to parch dry what the being had lost."
"Or what it had stolen from others,"