carry the memories, but they don’t have to control you anymore.” He hesitated. “May I ask you a delicate question?”
“Sure.”
“Do you jerk off?”
Hyatt’s eyebrows jumped. “Um, sometimes. Not a lot.”
“Do you have fantasies while you do it? As in, do you imagine yourself with someone else? Or picture two strangers being intimate?”
“More the second one, I guess.” He sat up and covered his lap with both hands. Dorian did the same, but his wood was losing interest in this serious conversation. One they hadn’t really had yet and probably should have had sooner. “Even when I was a teenager and first started hitting puberty, I was never all that interested in sex. I mean, sure, touching myself feels good, but sometimes it feels like a lot of work for, like, twenty seconds of coming.”
“I can understand that.” Dorian was a fan of jerking off and finding his pleasure, but he also saw how someone else might not. Just because they all had dicks didn’t mean they all enjoyed using them the same way. Only… “Did you feel that way about the phone sex we shared?”
“No way. That was awesome, because it was us, and I was doing something to help you. To make you feel good. Me coming was kind of a bonus feature. It helped show me that sex with the right person could be awesome.”
“I’m glad.” Truly, joyfully glad Hyatt had enjoyed that moment and hadn’t simply been humoring Dorian. “Do you think you want to have sex outside of heat? And I don’t mean penetration, but what we were doing a few minutes ago. Rubbing off together.”
“I think so.” He ducked his head slightly to the side, as if embarrassed. “It felt really good. I’ve just never exposed myself to someone else who isn’t a doctor.”
“Then why don’t we take things one step at a time. When you’re ready. It doesn’t have to be tonight.”
“Yes, it does.” Hyatt released an amused snort. “I mean, I’d like to do something more intimate tonight. Will you, um, move to the other side of the bed?”
“Of course.” Curious and proud, Dorian shuffled to the far side, while Hyatt did the same. “Just tell me what you need from me.”
“Sit there for now.” With fumbling fingers, Hyatt undid his fly and slowly shimmied out of his trousers, leaving him in his shirt, tie and loose boxers. He took off the tie next, then undid a few buttons on the shirt, exposing precious inches of his skin. Skin Dorian desperately wanted to lick and that thought got his dick back into things.
Hyatt took his glasses off, then put them back on, seeming at war with what to do with them. “I can’t decide if this will be easier if I can’t see you,” he said.
“Would it be easier if I couldn’t see you?” Dorian asked. “Not until you’re ready for me too. You could blindfold me.” He pointed at the discarded tie.
“Um, we can try that.” Hyatt passed the tie over, and while Dorian didn’t want to stop looking at his future mate, he secured the tie over his eyes and put everything in Hyatt’s hands.
A blindfolded Dorian might be the sexiest thing Hyatt had seen in his life. The big alpha simply sat there, his work slacks boldly tented by his erection. And while they’d been hard together before, they hadn’t done anything remotely like this. Dorian had the strength, but Hyatt held all the power.
He loved that Dorian hadn’t shamed Hyatt for his lack of direct interest in sex. He’d listened and asked questions and accepted Hyatt’s truth, and Hyatt didn’t know how to thank the man for that. For being kind and considerate. And incredibly patient with Hyatt’s glacial pace. He truly did love Dorian and couldn’t wait to mate with him in three more weeks.
But first he had to work up to being comfortable naked with him.
“I’m, um, going to touch myself,” Hyatt whispered, the room suddenly too quiet. “In one sec, hold on.” He still had the white noise machine in his room that Peyton and Layne used to use when they had sex, so they didn’t disturb Khory or the baby. He turned that on, then settled on his side of the bed. Put his hand inside his boxers and stroked his erect dick.
Those simple sensations always felt great. He knew what he liked, how hard to tug, when to touch his balls. And as he played, for the first time he wondered what it would