been wearing earlier.
“What are you doing?” Philip asked.
John’s head whipped up, all traces of joviality or good nature absent. “Get out.”
“But she’s still—”
“Get out!”
Philip stumbled back out in the snow, bewildered. This didn’t make sense. Why was John shouting at him? He stood in the snow for ten minutes, until the shed door opened and his brother ducked beneath the arch to step through.
“Is she dead?”
“Yes.” The anger had left John’s voice. “Let’s get the horses.”
“Can I see her?”
“No, it’s growing late. We have to get back.”
For an answer, Philip moved quickly around him and made a grab for the latch. His feet left the ground as John picked him up and threw him backward.
“Philip, I’m not playing with you! You get up and get your horse, now.”
“We can’t leave her alive. She saw both of us. We’ll never be able to come to this part of the city again.”
“Trust me now,” John said in what looked like despair. “Let us go home.”
Neither one spoke for the first half of their ride back through the trees. Doubts swirled in Philip’s mind. He hated them. What could he call these unwanted thoughts? Concern. Yes, that’s it. He was concerned.
“Why did you leave that woman alive?” he asked finally, breaking the tense silence. “She will remember us.”
“No, she won’t.”
“Of course she will.”
“Angelo warned me about hunting with you,” John said quietly. “Try to remember that you aren’t like me. Master wants you to grow and develop at your own pace with no preconceptions of what you should be. Do you understand?”
“No.”
“I can do things you can’t. Believe me, that woman won’t know us if we go back to town. She won’t remember anything.”
Philip pulled up his horse. “Oh, it’s a trick? One of your little psychic tricks? You made her forget?”
“Yes.”
“Well, why didn’t you tell me?” Relief and annoyance replaced concern. “You’ve ruined the whole ride home for nothing. We could have raced or chased down some peasants.”
John laughed and kicked his horse into motion. “Still plenty of room for that,” he called. “I let you win last time.”
Unpleasant thoughts forgotten, Philip urged Kayli to bolt, leaping forward across the snow.
“Julian?”
A few nights later, Philip searched the upper west tower for companionship. Master Angelo had gone out on business, and John was cloistered with a book again. This tower hadn’t been cleaned in years, and he felt uncomfortable here in this dead, cheerless place filled with ancient ghosts. Not that ghosts bothered him, but the outdoors beckoned, fresh air and wind rushing through the trees.
Dust flew up into his mouth as he called out. Julian’s company didn’t appeal to him any more than this tower did, but talking to someone else, anyone else, was preferable to being alone. Loneliness hurt more than hunger, and he was no good at entertaining himself. Angelo tried to teach him a game of solitary cards once, but he couldn’t sit still or focus long enough to learn.
“Julian?”
“Who’s there?” a dull voice called from somewhere ahead.
“It’s me. Where are you?”
“Philip?”
“Yes, of course. Which room are you in?”
A tall form dressed in black stepped into view down the hallway. “Down here. Are you alone?”
“Quite alone. I’m so bored even you sound like good company right now.”
“Come ahead then.”
He followed Julian into a small, alcove-styled room with an open window that faced Harfleur. Lights and smoke from city fires glowed in the distance. Julian looked terrible—and he smelled stale. His skin was sallow with dark circles under his eyes. His hair was lank and uncombed, and he was wearing a cloak that had not been brushed out for weeks.
“Shouldn’t we light a candle?” Philip asked.
“No,” Julian said. “You’re a vampire. You can see in the dark.”
“I suppose.”
“Why did you come here?”
“Looking for you. Come out hunting?”
“Not tonight.”
Philip rolled his eyes and dropped into a dusty wooden chair.
“What’s a bastard?” he asked after a few moments.
“Someone without a legitimate father.” Julian was looking out the window, but his profile was clear, and his expression lost its melancholy cast. He sounded mildly interested. “Why would you ask me that?”
“John said my father is a bastard, but he must have meant something else then.”
“Oh.” The corner of Julian’s mouth curved up. “It can also be used to call someone heartless or cruel. Your father did treat you badly, but only because you disappointed him. He wanted you to be strong. Take his place.”
“Is your father a bastard?”
“Mine? No. Mine is . . . an unusual man. I wish your memory hadn’t erased